In Search Of Redamancy (One Direction)

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She watched through her bedroom as the snowflakes fell from the sky. The sky was cloudy, and it was her favourite weather, but Winter wasn't feeling happy that day. Maybe it was the melancholic music that played in the background, the playlist she had created with the songs she loved the most. Songs about relationships, about love and being loved back. Something she had never experienced before.

All of her previous crushes had ended in disgrace, in the familiar pain of unrequited love she was used to at this point in life. But nevertheless, she was in love with the idea of love. Her brown locks were messily wrapped in a bun, and the sweater and baggy pants she wore fitted the cold November weather. Her room was warm, but not warm enough for her liking.

Winter bit her nails nervously as she continued to observe the exterior. Tomorrow would be her first day in her new school, and she knew no one. She had moved during the summer, from sunny California to cloudy England, Nottingham to be specific. And saying that changing continents had caused her tremendous anxiety was an understatement.

She suffered from Generalized Anxiety Disorder, which would cause her random anxiety attacks unexpectedly. But even though Winter was shy, and books were her best friends, she had no trouble talking to people. She just wasn't brave enough to make the first move. But if someone came over to talk to her, she would be perfectly okay.

A new school. A fresh start. Maybe things would be better there than back in L.A. Maybe she would make more friends, even find a boyfriend. But... Maybe not. Maybe none of that would happen. What if she was the odd one out?

In Cali, Winter had her little group of friends she had left behind, and would probably never see again. School was alright, but she felt invisible. She felt like she was hiding behind her perfectly normal girl look, when she was anything but normal.

And, as the music keep playing, Winter kept looking out the window. Thinking about life, about how she was searching. In search of herself, in search of redamancy.

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This was a kind of introduction to the story. I have written a book in portuguese but decided to venture into english writing. I'm not a native speaker, so I apologize in advance to any mistakes I'll make. I hope you like this story as much as I do, because that's what matters! I don't promise really regular updates, but I'll try to post as much as I can!!

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