Were Do I Begin.......

..... Not Ready

breathing...crying....sleeping...dying...screaming....lying....homeless...striving...living....praying....hoping...delaying....sadness...madness... "huh, huh, huh" taking...running....jumping....stopping..."STOP!" I wake up on my soft clean bed I looked closley at my bed...at my room...at the mirror.... the scars and scrapes were all still there..... why must I have a nightmare EVREY night??? I think to myself...

I got out of bed and went downstairs no one was there, it was like a haunted house; with dust and old creeks, "what happened?" "Dennis?" no reply "jaden?!" no answer, "MAMA?!" nothing was alive it was as creepy as the basement..... the basement had mold and mice running around... elk gives me shivers evrey time

I walk further down to the kitchen,nothing but the bones of my familey, I see myself covered in blood over my family laughing.. I woke up screaming with my mother comforting me.. "I cant do it mama, I can"

"you cant do what?!" mama replys

"I cant keep pretending evreythings ok, nothing has been normal since Charlie died!!!!" I yell moving to the other side of my mother...