My Popular Roommate

Chapter 10

                  

Recap: "Are you okay?" I heard Josh ask but didn't manage to answer him. All I was thinking now is why am I taking myself there? How will I manage to get in again? I parked, took a deep breath and left the car without a word. Scanning it, I tried to strengthen myself by holding up my tears.

"What is this?" Josh asked. I walked into the gate and locked it open. Going inside, every damn thing crossed my mind. I remembered how they were all over me. How I was banged and hurt.
Without saying anything, I gave Josh they key and he opened the door. An electric shiver immediately passed through my whole body. Josh started scanning every bit of the place while I couldn't hold my tears anymore... Then it hit me like a wrecking ball. I had a horrible past. Liam wouldn't want to be with me after what happened.

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Moments later, Josh started asking me questions about what he saw but I was so silent, couldn't even say one word not just because I was way too scared by the whole place and I felt so weak at the moment but because I, out of the blue, showed Josh and don't even have the argue to tell him about a damn thing. This was way too much information for him. What am I going to say to him? Show him how a slut his roommate is? He started moving around the rooms and checking the stuff. The moment I saw them, I got on the floor, wrapped my two arms around my legs, and hid my face in between. My tears started to sob down my face and I couldn't bear to stop them. Each approaching footstep he takes stiffens my arms around my legs. I felt like I was one sort of prey and my predator is just so near at hand. Right now, I felt like Elvis has left the building. I knew he was going to tell everyone about this and I would be kicked out of the school. VERY SOON.

''Sage, I don't know what to say. I don't understand what brings you and me here.'' He slowly said. I couldn't face him. I couldn't show him my face. I just can't at all. My hands started shivering and it got so fail that it slowly left my leg. The moment I tilted my head up to face him, he sat right next to me causing the shivers to pass all over my body. He placed his hand on my back and started moving me slowly to him. In the heat of the moment, I tightened my arm around him and started crying even more. He on the other side didn't make a move and it hit me like a wrecking ball. I was just a whore to him. I quickly stood up and looked at him.

''We have to go.'' I slowly said. My voice filled with fear, hesitation, and guilt. I was still shaking but chose to hide that inside. Not even looking at him once, I walked out until he followed me. I locked the door and left..

As I descended downstairs, Josh didn't stop from calling my name once.

''I don't want to talk about this.'' I said slowly. I was too pissed that he saw me like that. Almost sub-missed in front of him.

''Then why the fuck did take me there?'' He blared back. I knew he was hundred one percent right but I didn't have an actual answer to his question.

I was supposed to sit back in his car but I couldn't so chose to walk, which was the easiest way right now.

''Where are you going?'' He snapped but I ignored him. ''The FUCK, Sage. Stop giving me titles without information.'' With this, he stopped his car right in front of me. I had no choice but to walk to his car. My heart was already beating so fast and I was shivering both from the cold and from the shock.

''I don't want to talk about anything. I just want to get back to my dorm. SAFELY.'' I said as soon as I sat next to him in the car trying to break the eye contact as much as possible. I rested my head back, closed my eyes and started thinking of the whole thing. I wonder what Josh would be thinking of me right now. Everything is getting more and more complicated. Me, taking him there. WHY? I, with not a spark of decency took him to that place. IDIOT am I?