I woke up and saw it was 6:00 at night. I immediately got in my car and drove home. I hoped Raleigh wad at Chelsea's house tonight to not see by beaten up body.
I went to the bathroom and was disappointed at my frame. I had cuts in my cheeks, purple bruises on my face, legs, and arms.
I went to my secret spot and took out my bestfriend.
Mr. Blade.
I took out the blade and rolled up my sleeves. I looked at all my scars all of them told a different story that scares the shit out of me. I started making deep cuts into my arm instead of a regular cut.
1- For Carter
2- For Nash
3- For Cameron
4- For Taylor
5- Matt
6- For Jack J
7- Jack G
8- For Shawn
9- For Aaron
10- For Hayes
11- For my mom who died from a hit and run
12- For my stepmom who died from a car crash
13- For Raleigh Sacramento, my stepsister who was the daughter of my stepmom.
14- For Olympia, who has a heart diease.
15- For Dad, drowning himself in work ever since my stepmom died.
16- For all my bullies together for hurting me.
17- For people thinking I'm worthless, which I am.
18- For living my life.
19- For not having confidence in myself.
Then my deepest cut ever:
20- For being me.
After I put away the blade in my secret hiding spot. Then I wiped the blood away from my arm and covered it up.
I walked to my room and did all my homework and got ready for bed. Before I went to bed I called up Raleigh telling her that I left dinner for her on the table wrapped.
I couldn't sleep at all. I kept tossing and turning with nightmares and hateful things racing in my mind.
After awhile deciding I wouldn't be able to fall back I decided to go record more music to my CD at 3 am. in the morning.
I started up my laptop and decided to sing my song Jar of Hearts.
You know I can't
Take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is your breath
And don't you know
I'm not your ghost
Any more
You lost the love
I loved the most...
After I finished the song I uploaded up to my CD.
Eventually, I went to my bed and fell asleep of what I did wrong to deserve this.
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Bullied By Magcon
Aventura"I'm sorry for what I did to you, I never knew that it would get this far." "And I'm sorry that I can't forgive you, I didn't know it would be this bad. " DISCONTINUED (I made this when I was 11-12-years-old in 6th grade!! Thus, a lot of this fic...
