What is love?

Truth was

Yes, I was talking to Shan,because he didn't beat me, or rape me physically or mentally, accusing me of things, or cheated on me. He would make a battered woman stronger about herself!
I thought it was bad enough for my ex David to find out but when my married sister Heather found out...She had went ape crazed. Yet she had married my bother in law J.R. and at the time had two sons by him. She was telling me I was a whore and don't deserve any good in my life!
At the time , I believed she was right...So, I cut ties with Shan once again and left him back in the rear view mirror knowing doing anything with him would bring only more problems!
Two years had passed, I graduated high school and was trying to find myself, being a single mother at 19 years old of two beautiful little girls, not really sure where to go...I didn't really have a stable place of residency but continued my old bad habits.
I had went to stay with my dad's ex girlfriend Kathy. She was a short 5'1, Hispanic, brown eyed, black hair. She had nasty teeth, and had baby fat on her stomach. She was not (still isn't) the best looking woman I had ever seen...
Anyways, I was drinking some 40's of bud light and took a football for my first time and was extremely jacked up.
Kathy invited some friends over, and one of our friends happened to have Mr. Stewart with her! She wanted to date him but he just wasn't into her. After he told her how he felt, Lacie took off.
So, I and Shan had caught up on two years of life! We had both changed...Well. I thought he had, but I was wrong...
He and I were fooling around in one of Kathy's bedrooms. We were kissing passionately...I was running my hands through his hair, biting his lip, scratching his back. I jumped on top of him to straddle him, he put his hand in my pants, and questioned "your not wearing panties?" I blushed.