I'm Missy and This is the real Me

The Real Story

I'm studying hard. Not for myself but for my parents. Not for them to be proud of me but to lessen their disappointment on me when they finally get to know my secret. My big fucking secret.

I'm being a good friend, a shoulder to cry on, a friend to hang out with. I'm not doing it because I wanted to be a really good friend but for them to have a little doubts on leaving me when they found out the truth behind my character.

I'm being a very loving, caring and good girlfriend. Not because I want him to love me more in return but because I wanted him to have a reason to stay with me when He finally find out who I am before and who I am after.

I'm not sure if this things that I'm doing right now will work. I will be doing this just to prove to myself that I will never be miserable in the future.

Because I don't want to live on my own. I want my family, my friends and my boyfriend. I don't want to lose them. I want them to be permanent in my life. Though I'm not sure If all of that could happen. I'm not sure if they still can accept me. I'm not sure who will stay, or who will not leave either.

I'm Missy. Welcome to My Miserable Life.