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Chapter 1

I finally updated!! It's been a while so I'm sorry for that but here you go and enjoy chapter 1. I'll try to update later this week.

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I slide into Mr. C’s history class,10 minutes late. I keep my eyes down and sit in my desk. “Ms. Starks, late yet again.” Students laugh and snicker as I blush but I don’t notice because of the hood over my head. “It won’t happen again.” I mumble, half-apogetically. A popular student, Patricia Farwell, also my bully since fourth grade laughs. “This always happens. She probably has AIDS.” The class bursts into laughter. “Or maybe cancer…but wait, nobody cares, isn’t that right Bailey?”Leave. I calmly walk out the door with the class still laughing at me and my horrible self. I pace walk to the bathroom and throw up my breakfast. That’s the only thing you’ll ever be. Deal with it Madeline whispers. I nod, wiping the grime from my mouth and faking a smile, head back into the halls.

 It’s like nobody knew I had this terrible secret.

 It all started with a website called “pro-ana.” I didn’t know what it was so I clicked on it. It showed thousands of bone thin girls with ribs showing…I scrolled down some more…70 reasons not to eat, to hide this from the ones you love. I stared in awe. It was like looking at beautiful walking skeletons! I didn’t even think that was possible.

I opened a new window called “Tips and Tricks.” It identified different eating disorders: anorexia and bulimia nervosa, binge eating disorder and EDNOS. I learned about this in health class but apparently not enough.

I closed the tabs down but I saved the website on my favorite’s list and thought about it. Should I even be looking at this? There are millions of websites and fat girls like me. I mean, I am 135 pounds…that isn’t exactly attractive. I decided that I would start off slowly and surely become the girl that I want to be.