He stole my heart // Chandler Riggs Fanfic

Chapter 13: I need this

  I have my appointment today. I'm scared. I haven't felt good and not in a morning sickness way, a bad way. I walked thought the hospital doors with Maylon.
"Your going to be fine." She says. We sat down and she took my hand.
"You have to promise me something." She says.
"What?"
"You will tell chandler today."
"Fine."
"He has to be apart of this."
"You do realize if I tell him that my acting career on TWD is over right?"
"I'm asking on behalf of your career."
"Ms.Maxfield." The nurse says. We stand up and walk in. They weigh me in and do everything. I lay down and they run the jelly around. She turned the screen toward me.
"There they are." She says. She pressed a few buttons.
"What's wrong?" May asked.
"I'm sorry but it looks like you lost the baby."
"How far was she?"
"10 weeks maybe or 8 my guess." I was relieved but sad. I squeezed May's hand and she squeezed it back.
"No, can you check again?"
"I'm sorry but you lost the baby." She put a hand on my knee. She said.
"I'll give you a minute." And walked out.
"I could have actually been able to stay with chandler." I say.
"Rachel do not be selfish. That baby would have changed many things in your career bad but also good.
"Even though they were an accident I really did love them."
"I'm sure you did. I don't doubt it."

"You still have to tell chandler." She said in the car.
"And what good will that do, he hates me for kicking him out."
"This was his baby, Rachel, I shouldn't have to explain myself."
"You have 2." I say starring at her belly.
"I know it's hard but you have to tell him."
"No."
"Rachel Marie."
"Your not mom you don't get to call me by my middle name."
"I can if this is serious."
"Please just drop it." She parked in front of my house.
"Why don't you go pack."
"Bye." I opened the door.
"Love you."
"Love you too." I walked in and flopped in the couch. I screamed into my pillow until I lost my voice.

  I woke up to a knock on my door. I walked over and opened it.
"You want to explain to me why chandler's a wreck?" Greyson asked.
"Good to see you too, Greyson." I opened the door and he walked in.
"What is going on? I thought you patched things up."
"You really want to know everything?"
"Every bit."
"I don't think you can take everything."
"Rachel it can't be that bad."
"It's not pretty."
"Just help me understand."
"Scott gave me an ultimatum."
"Well shit."
"Shit is right."
"What was it?"
"Get fired or stop seeking chandler."
"Are you serious?"
"Yeah."
"So you kicked him out."
"As much as I love him, we can't be together."
"I'm really sorry Rachel."
"What was it that I couldn't handle?"
"I don't want to talk about that."
"Rachel it's ok."
"No you'll tell him, I don't want him to know."
"About the ultimatum?"
"No something else."
"Just tell me, I'll help you."
"This is something I will never recover from, I've hurt him enough, I don't want to put him through what I'm going through."
"I won't tell him if you tell me."
"I can trust you?"
"Of course."

  I curled up on the bed with nugget. I haven't left the house today. 21 missed calls from chandler, 45 missed calls and 14 texts from Lauren. 12 missed calls from Scott. 4 from Steven, 17 from Danai, 1 from mom and  8 from Emily. I hit my phone against the nightstand repeatedly making a thumping noise. I called Emily.
"Hello!! I called like 50 times! Rachel!!!"
"Hey."
"Don't be so cool about it."
"I was thinking."
"Or writing a book."
"No really."
"What?"
"Girls night."

  Emily and I picked up Naomi and Tatiana.
"I really need this." I say. I haven't told Emily about the miscarriage yet.
"You going to drink?" She whispered.
"I talk to you in a minute." I say. She nods and continues driving. We arrived and Tatiana and Naomi head in.
"What's up with you?" Emily asks.
"I lost it."
"You..." She breaks down.
"Can we just forget this conversation ever happened?"
"Rachel I can't forget something like that."
"We'll do it. Not many people know."
"Who knows?"
"You, Maylon, Colton, and Greyson."
"And I plan to keep it that way." I add.
"You guys coming or what?" Naomi yells. Emily holds up one finger.
"Rach you have to tell chandler, he has a right to know."
"I've put him through enough shit this past week I'm not putting this on him."
"Rachel-"
"I'm not doing this in the parking lot."
"Fine." We walked to the front.
"Hello Ms. Maxfield, hello Ms.Kinney." The bouncer said.
"These girls are with us." Emily says. They laugh.
"Y'all have a nice night." We walked in.
"So do you guys have like a VIP lounge?" Tatiana laughs.
"No Mickey used to be a body guard for us." I say.
"Used to?"
"He got fired to punching a paparazzi."
"It was all worth it, no regrets." Emily says.
"Living dangerous, I like it." Naomi says. We get some drinks and sit down. A guy walks over.
"Well isn't it the walker stabber girls themselves." He says.
"Lucas!" Emily and I say in unison.
"Who's this?" Tatiana asks.
"One of our directors at walker stalker con Miami." Emily says.
"He's awesome." I add. She smiles.
"Sorry about your Ranchler drama." He says.
"Cheers to that messed up shit hole." I say. We laugh and take a shot." We dance and eventually it's just me and Lucas.
"So you broke up with Tyler-"
"Nah nah nah! He cheated on me!" I say.
"Wait wait wait! With Emily!?" He already knew that.
"Yeah!"
"Wow! Then you dumped chandler?"
"Yeah."
"Why?"
"My career."
"So it was him or your career?"
"Somethin like that. This morning is a blurr."
"You decided today?"
"No! I don't know what I'm talking about anymore."
"Let me get this straight. Your not seeing anyone?"
"No."
"Good."
"You wanna get out of here?" I nodded.