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Ⅴ : Enchanted

I was leaning against the wall surrounded by my friends flashing empty smiles and letting out dead laughter. My friends thought it was be a great idea to take me out of my room after weeks of isolation from the outside world. Behind my face of make up were the tear stained cheeks, puffy  and blood shot eyes. They thought I needed this - to get beyond recognition of who I am and have a one night of no strings attached - a rebound, but I wasn't that type of girl. I'm still not. But I'm glad I went through with their idiotic their plan because I met you, and it was wonderful. It was enchanting.

You entered the room demanding for attention like no one else I've seen before, and just like a fairy tale our gazes locked together. You murmured something to your friend who smirked which was a code red for me because I automatically thought I was your next conquest. I didn't know you but from your black V-neck shirt, ripped jeans, and black leather boots I automatically thought you were bad for me, and I didn't want a repeat of last time. So I hid behind my friends, but it was futile because we had already seen each other. To this day I still chuckle at the memory for my childish plans.

You glided across the floor to me breaking apart my group of friends, and when they saw that look of determination in your eyes they immediately left. I was angry at them, but in the end it turned out great. You begun to chat me up, and you held eye contact with me and listened to every word I had to say. My ex never did that with me but you who at the time was just a stranger to me was paying close attention to me as if everything that spewed out of my mouth was Nobel Prize worthy.

Throughout the night as I saw men buying drinks for women they had their eyes on I noticed that you never once offered to buy me a drink, and I thought that was odd. As our conversation deepened I decided it was safe to ask you about that, which didn't surprise you at all. You must've been expecting that from me. And at the time it alarmed me, but it was only because you were quickly deciphering and crumbling down all of my defenses. It scared me.

"Usually guys who try to get with a girl at a bar buy her drinks and such, but not you," I noticed.

You nodded. "Correct."

"Why?"

"Because when guys buy girls drinks they are doing it with the intention of never meeting them again," you replied.

I blushed as your answer started to set in. You liked me. You wanted to get to know me and not just my body. Shyly, I smiled at you. At that moment I decided that maybe taking a dive into love once again wouldn't be the worst thing to happen because I liked you.

I liked your dimples, your five o'clock shadow, your dark chocolate colored eyes, your kind nature, and funny sense of humor. You were everything he was not. In my eyes you were the most amazing human being to ever exist.

But just like every great beginning there had to be an ending, but it wasn't like my last relationship. The relationship with you was much sweeter, and I now understand why you came into my life. You came and whisked me off of my feet to show me that not all men are mean and cruel. There are those who are kind and sweet hidden under that tough exterior, and all you had to do to see it was look hard enough. And I did. You were a wonderful blessing, and I truly did love you from the bottom of my heart.

I gave it my all, and I knew you did too. You were my Prince Charming, my night in shinning armor. You protected me and held me dear to your heart. You left me with so much knowledge, and I wondered if I ever gave you any knowledge, but I guess I'll never know. However, I like to believe I did. It helps me go through life without you but it's easier with your present. You left me a gift, and she is so beautiful. She has your eyes and your dimples that I loved to poke.

We are in front of you and she is carrying with us a bouquet of sunflowers since they were your favorite type of flower. Today is the day we first met, and I just wanted to pay my respects. It's the least I can do after all that you have given me.

I want to cry but I refuse. You told me to always keep my head held high even in the darkest of hours. And that is exactly what I am doing now, but I want to say something before I have to leave with our daughter to a family dinner with my new husband who at the moment is at work. It's all thanks to you. I never thought I would ever come to love another man, but he came, and even though he is not you he treats me like you treated me as if I am a jewel, and you would be so proud of me to be able to love again after everything I've been through.

I never got to tell you everything I thought or felt when I was with you so now I come here to your grave every chance I get to pay my respects, but I am now and I guess it's better late than never, right? However, before we go to resume with our life without you I just want to let you know that I was enchanted to meet you, and I don't regret ever going to that bar in the middle of the night with my friends because i met you. And you were worth every tear and heartache I went through to have you finally enter my life.