Thoughts

Rant

Where do I start...
It reminds me of of him, everything. Seeing ice cream stands on street corners reminds me of when we went on these stupid little ice cream dates, and he refused to let me pay no matter how much I argued,or the goofy faces, he made to best silly faces, leaving me laughing until tears rolled down my face or the hours upon hours we just spent talking and how he looked me in the eyes with the most care and sincerely or when my anxiety kicked in and I broke down in panic attacks, he would hold me and whisper that everything would end up okay, or the way he would randomly break out dancing in public just to make me smile , or how we would just sit in silence just leaning against each other, or how we walked down the street with fingers intertwined, getting yelled at for P.D.A. by some friends. The way his hand fit perfectly around my waist as he pulled me closer, and took silly selfies with his phone, both our faces lit up from laughter. The way we just stood there not wanting to say goodbye, knowing that we unwillingly had to go our separate ways and the way he held me in his arms one last time ...I didn't want to let go .... We still kept in contact and would talk everyday, but after a while we started to become distant.  And now I don't even think he cares, and it's unbearably painful.....