Thoughts

Anxiety

These are not my words but this is extremely accurate

Social anxiety makes you do weird things, such as holding onto an apple core for 45 minutes during a meeting because you're too anxious to go to the trash can that's 10 feet away. Or waiting for someone else to throw out their apple core so you know it's okay
But waiting a few minutes after they do so you don't look like you were waiting for them.
And trying not to stumble because you know everyone is watching you walk.
And feeling really proud and relieved when you arrive back at your seat having successfully thrown away an apple core like its a difficult task.