For those who hate love

that year

that year i fell
it felt like hell
not the way you think
it happened in a blink

i felt like everyone hated me
i wish i could have made you see
that i hated my self too
all the things i went through

do you know how many times i tried?
how many times i cried?
i was alone and scared
i felt impaired.

i fell
into a hell
and was broken,
unspoken

i never would be fully fixed