For those who hate love

that day

that day everyone ignored me
i couldn't see
i pretended i was fine till the night
where i wouldn't put up a fight

so i went down to the ocean
just going through the motion
i took all the pills i could find
it seemed fine in my mind

it was late
and i wanted this to be fate
i was full of hate

so i swam out as far as i could
more then i should
i let go of all my breath
so i could seek my death
i swam down
i was in a well known Florida town

and i smiled as my vision turned black
and slipped through the crack

but i woke up!
i had only managed to sip from death's cup
and i screamed from anger
and i was alive
it was all for nothing, that dive
i didn't want this life anymore
i was curled up on the beach floor
wanting to to slip through life's door

but that day everyone ignored me wouldn't be the last