My Angel

Isn't It Crazy?

"Isn't it crazy that the person you are going to marry is somewhere in the world right now? They could be eating, sleeping, staring up at the same blue sky you are wondering who they are going to marry as well." Louis spoke quietly as we laid in his front yard.

His shoulder gently touched mine, and his fingers would sometimes brush across the skin of my forearm. His olive skin seemed to glimmer in the sunlight. His ocean blue eyes sparkled and seemed to move just like waves as she looked at the cloud above. His chestnut brown hair was fanned out around his head like a halo. He looked beautiful, as if he was a angel.

My angel.

His legs were bent, keens in the air along with mine. Every time they bumped I would have to gulp to quench my dry throat. Every little touch had me feeling sparks and fireworks.

     I wanted so badly to scream at him. To tell him the person he was going to marry was right beside him. Me. However I couldn't, because he doesn't feel the same. To him, I'm just his best friend. Even though it's painful to say, I'd rather be here with him as friends, than not have him at all.

          "Harry?"

I quickly snapped out of my thoughts and turned my head toward Louis.

       "What were you thinking about?" Louis asked curiously. I was silent for a minute, debating if I should actually tell him how I feel. Maybe he feels the same as I do, but then again what if he doesn't? What if he rejects my feelings? What if my feelings cause him to stop talking to me? I decided I couldn't tell him yet, not now. I care about him to much, losing him would hurt far too much. I tried to give him my best smile.

       "I was thinking about the future and what it holds." I replied softly. He gave me a gentle smile. "Hopefully we can both find someone special to share our future with. Until then, we have each other." His smile reached her eyes, he was so beautiful. I couldn't help but give a small smile in return.

       "You're right, until then we have each other. Each other is all we need." I replied warmly.

        "Do you think we will still be best friend?" He asked. His face was serious, as was her tone.

        "Why wouldn't we be?"

        "I mean like, what if we spend all our time with our significant other and have no more time to talk to each other? Will we stop being friends?" I heard a hint of worry in his voice, along with a bit of sadness. I gave him a little frown.

"Of course we will. We will always make time for each other, right? You mean a lot to me. I'll never forget you like that, I promise." I gave him smile. He beamed at my response.

          "I'm so happy to hear that! I promise too, You're my best friend, I wouldn't want to lose you either." He grinned. Best friend. I forgot we were just friends. I felt a ping in my chest, I'd being lying if I said it didn't hurt. However, when I saw how glad he was, I simply smiled at her. I knew it wouldn't work between us, but it didn't take away how I felt. Of course, I couldn't tell him that though. I didn't want to take away his smile. He looked back up at the sky, his face seemed to glow.

    If only it could be like that forever, but only fairytales have  happily ever afters. This was far from a happy ending. As I gazed back up at the bright blue sky, all I could think about was my happy ending. I couldn't help but to think, "Will I ever get one?"