Niall's POV
Being a member of the world's biggest boy band had been the most defining moment in my life. I had established myself in a more than stable career and had millions of adoring fans. They loved me regardless of anything I did and I truly respected them for that. Nearing the three year mark of being together, I was filled with a feeling of emptiness. I knew no matter how hard I tried I would never be truly happy. There were the days of extreme highs like the announcement of our stadium tour and playing Croke Park, but the days of extreme lows outnumbered the highs by a huge amount.
The biggest issue in life was the pressure of the media to always be perfect. Often before stepping outside to do something as simple as buying groceries I was required to have my clothing approved by management. Every single aspect of my life was being controlled and I didn't like it at all.
And at first the fans were great. With all the jokes about Niam and Narry and all the other bromances that they made up. Of course there were the times that we tried to make it seem like the bromance actually happened, because it was fun. But we knew that we were not actually allowed to be in love with each other. That was another part that I have yet to get over. Louis and Harry were so in love and were allowed to be in love during the X Factor but as soon as we were in the public eye, they had to act almost as if the other boy did not exist. The fans definitely picked up on it.
To this day, Harry and Louis barely talk to each other. We all know that they are still in love it's just that neither boy really sees it in the other. That and they still have a worry deep down that they will not be accepted for being who they are. Management kept telling them that and even though they tried to ignore everything, you cannot have something not bother you if you are told over and over that it is true.
Now that I'm here, December 2014 in a mental institution, I feel as though I am finally freed of some of the burdens that came with my fame. Of course, I had to finish the tour with the band. Modest would not let me be. But here I am, getting the help I need and that is the most important part.
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Broken
Fiksi PenggemarEmily had just been placed in the local hospital's mental ward after a serious bout of depression. There she meets a boy named Niall who proves to her that sometimes those who seem the happiest may be the most broken on the inside.
