Forgotten. (Luke Hemmings)

Chapter 5

"October 15th, 2015.
Luke, my dearest Luke. No words can describe how sorry I am. I can't believe things ended up this way. I never wanted any of this to happen to you, regardless of how bad you were getting, I never wanted you to loose every memory you had and start from scratch. I told you I loved you the day of the car accident. You didn't say it back but that's okay because who would love me anyway? You claimed I don't love you and that no one could possibly love you because you're unlovable. Luke that is the biggest load of bullshit that I have ever heard. I love you more then you could ever imagine. I loved you at your best and worst, Ive been with you through your ups and downs. I can honestly say that a day spent with you is a day well spent. I want you to know that you will never ever be alone Luke. No matter what happens I will always be here for you. When I saw you in the hospital bed my heart broke into a billion pieces, the sight was unbearable. When you didn't know who I was, a part of me died inside that will never be replaced. I can't promise you a rode to recovery but I know for a fact you will get get through this amnesia Luke. Weather it's remembering or not, we'll make it through this together. I'll be with you every step of the way.  I'm determined to make you remember.
I'll do whatever it takes.
I'm going to start from the beginning. I promise you everything will be okay in the end.
I love you,
Vanessa"

I scribbled down all my thoughts into the book I found myself writing in on a daily bases. This book started in the 1st grade as my diary. It contained scribbles of Luke and I with a bunch of hearts and the typical 'Vanessa Hemmings' in cursive. As creepy as it sounds,every night I would record every moment I had with him in my book. It wasn't meant to turn out creepy or make me seem obsessed. All I wanted was everything to be remembered. As the years went by, this book got more and more deeper with my thoughts of him. I would put my heart and soul into this book on a daily bases.

When Luke would scare me to a point that I was afraid to speak up. . I would say the things I was to afraid to say to him in my book.

Freshman year I decided I would give this book to him at the right time in the future. The right time? No idea. But some day I plan on giving it to him.

I flicked through the messy torn up pages seeing various scribbles and crossed out words but one of them in particular came to my attention.

"August 22nd, 2008
You told me you wanted to be a super hero and save people's lives"

I playfully shook my head. Little did he know he was the one that needed to be saved.

I took a quick glance up at Luke peacefully sleeping on my shoulder. I gently ran my fingers through his messy hair. He looked so peaceful, so stress free, so happy. I don't think I've ever seen him look this way in a long time come to think of it.

"October 3RD he asked me what day it was. I told him it was October 3rd"

for some odd reason I couldn't stop laughing at this one. Why on earth would I even write this down? It was completely pointless and a waste of space in the book.

"May 13th, 2007
Lukey and me played jumprope outside my house on the street today. He hit me in the face with it. It hurt a lot. But he hugged me and kissed the boo boo he made on my arm. He told me it was going to be okay. Lukey always tells me it's going to be okay"

A small smile appeared onto my face when I read that one. In some way, somehow he always had my back. He always made sure I was okay and I knew deep down inside he cared for me, he just had an odd way of showing it ever since he hung out with those group of guys.