Hell's Personal Assassin: Book 1

Chapter 32- Part a

I fucking hate my life. 

I fucking hate life in general. 

I just want it all to go away tbh. 

sorry i haven't been updating. i'm under lots of stress and i can barely breathe sometimes from all the shit going on in my life

but we're not here to talk about me. We're here for the book. 

enjoy :)

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"Loose friends. Check," I grumbled after I spat out the toothpaste in my mouth. "Become a mythical creature. Check," I muttered as I pulled a small paper cup out of my cabinet and put it under the running water. "Meet ancient angels. Check," I sighed out while I impatiently waited for the water to fill the cup, fingers twitching. "Have demons in my head. Check. Kill innocent people. Check. Have premarital sex- which I promised myself I would never do. Check. Go to school to do an SAT test that I didn't study for. Check," I growled angrily as I stiffened up and accidentally crushed the cup. "Be a fucking mess," I muttered as I closed my eyes and forced myself not to punch a hole through the wall. "That's been checked off since I was born," I commented, violently laughing right after I said that. 

God, I'm bipolar. 

'Nope. You're just a fucked up mess,' a demon cackled, making the other ones start to laugh and me stop abruptly. I let out a growl in reply - which sounded like a gurgle since I still had some toothpaste foaming in my mouth. 

I cupped my hands together and put them underneath the faucet, right eye twitching as the water moved at a snail's pace. 

"Better shut that mouth before I shut it for you," was my calm response to the bitch's comment, my steady voice causing their laughs to die down. 

They know that once I'm that calm they hit a boundary. 

I mean, they should by now. They've been living in my head for three months. 

I sighed and closed my eyes, trying to calm down. After that... event with Vladimir in the bedroom we've been very distant towards each other. He literally did not remember anything, which was a blessing and a curse. I told him that nothing happened between us. I mean, what am I supposed to do in that kind of situation? Tell him the truth? Announce to him that he'll basically need to have sex constantly to survive, and will kill literally every human he has sex with from now on?

No. I'm not that big of a bitch. 

I'll let his "grandma" tell him all that shit. 

Meanwhile, Rahab has literally been hooting and hollering about me having sex with someone for a month now, which makes me want to rip his fucking body into pieces and feed his head to the little "doggies" waiting for me in Hell.  Cassiel told me that I'm still part angel, but the act did have a negative effect on me; which is why I've been going to church every Sunday and Saturday, hoping to win God back somehow.

At this moment in time, the only thing that I fear is becoming something like these fucking demonic whores in my head. 

'Love you too,' one demon retorted sarcastically to my thought, the others scoffing and snorting. I rolled my eyes at them and put the water cupped in my hand into my mouth, whooshing it around to get all the toothpaste. 

Now that I think about it, a lot of things have changed since a couple months ago. I feel like I've matured way more than I'm supposed to have mentally and logically. My brain processes the hardest stuff with ease, my instincts have become more accurate and useful, I can recite the first two centuries of history with horrifying detail, my fighting improved tremendously, and I now know how to swear fluently in Latin.

I've also grown accustomed to killing people as well; but it doesn't make ending a life any easier, trust me.

The guys - Ariel, Belial, Cassiel, and Rahab - and I have also grown a lot closer than we were originally. The classes that the angels and fallen angels teach have made me feel a lot more like family; like I belong with them. Iaoel and I have also come to the point where we can tolerate each other as well. He doesn't look at me like I'm trash anymore, and I don't look at him like he's an annoying old man anymore. Ariel and Belial are really sensitive when it comes to me now, trying to help me as much as possible and basically spoon-feeding me like I'm a baby. 

And Sammael? Where do I start. 

I literally want to stab myself between the eyes when I'm with him these days. He's pissed at me for some fucking reason, and he never even told me why. I have a feeling that he's just mad because he wants to be mad at me and doesn't have any real, logical reason behind it. Actually, you know what he reminds me of? A teenage girl that's constantly on her period; complaining about her problems, being angry at the world for no reason, and constantly being up my fucking ass. 

'Don't talk about your master that way. He might be able to hear you,' a little demon whispered to me in a worried voice, concerned that they might get burned again. I rolled my eyes and spit the water out of my mouth, patting my face with a towel. 

Don't get me wrong. I would feel very  sorry for them if they weren't cold-hearted demons with - no heart or soul, may I add.

"You're not my mother. I'll say what I fucking want to say," I stated simply, making some of the demons nervously and silently complain. 

I tossed the towel onto my counter and walked out of the bathroom, ready to change into some joggers and a loose sweater. Just because I have that SAT test today, doesn't mean I feel the need to "dress for success".

"Michelle," Zach said softly from the other side of my door, a knocking sound coming from the hallway. My stance stiffened and I turned rigid, not able to move. "Hurry up, we need to get to, uh... school," he said, sounding slightly hesitant. I just stood their, completely bewildered. That's the first time he's said a word to me for a month and a half. "Uh... Michelle?" he said nervously just as I snapped out of my trance and turned to look towards him. 

"Yeah, sorry, I'm almost done," I said slowly, trying to make sure I wouldn't sound rude or mad. 

A pause.

"Michelle? Are you... drunk or something?" he said slowly after the long moment of silence, nothing but seriousness in his voice, my lips twitching up into a grin at the random question. 

"No," I said through a couple chuckles. "I'm not. Go downstairs, I'll be there in a minute," I continued. 

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sorry guys, i know it's short but that's all i have time for right now

i know you guys probably wanted a longer chapter, i know, and i'm sorry, but this is literally all I have time for right now

i promise i'll get part B and possibly part C - if i end up doing three parts - done soon.

i would've just not published it and continued on with writing, but i feel like if you guys have to wait any more you'll feed me to some cannibals or something lol

but yeah, here it is, sorry it's short, and see ya later

luv you guys!

-michelle xoxoxo