Autumn Leaves

Three

This chapter will be in Vic's point view. *TRIGGER WARNING* (at the end)
Hope you enjoy nonetheless :)

Jennay•*•*•*•*
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I can't wait to see Kellin in class tomorrow. He makes my day how he's always acting weird around me. It's cute. Do I have a thing for Kellin? I'm bi, but I haven't come out to anyone but the team. But since I did, they've excluded me out of everything. I thought they would be more supportive. I guess I was wrong. I should probably tell Mike, my younger (yet taller) brother. I'll come out later tonight. My parents aren't home a lot, so I'll have to wait to tell them. Yes. Tonight, I'll tell Mike. But for now, I have to go to work at the little café near campus. Without mom and dad, I'm the only income we have. Mike is to high to really focus on a job. I don't have a car, so part of my check, tips, and savings, go to bus fares. I could always ask for a ride, but I don't want to bother anyone.

I get to work early, as always. I play a game on my phone while I wait for the right time to clock in. When I do, I slip an apron on, grab a pen, checkbook, and I sit down waiting for people to be seated. "Hi, I'm Vic and I will be your waiter today. May I start you off with something to drink?" Is what I will say when ever someone sits at one of my tables.

I'm carrying out a tray full of plates when I see him. Kellin. I stop dead in my tracks the moment I see him. I walk quickly to my table and set the food down to the right people. I'm yet to get an order wrong. One of the other waiters, Tony, comes over to me and taps me on the shoulder.

"I'll pick up the rest of the tables if you pick up the drink orders." We were part diner, part café. I just call it a café.

"Um, sure I guess." And with that I walk over to the coffe machine and start filling out the orders. I've done this many times before so I know what I'm doing. But when I come across one order, it's very specific.
One light frapp. Hazlenut caramel with chocolate drizzle. Extra whip, no cherry.

"Pretty specific order you have here.." It was kellin. Kellin Quinn ordered this and was standing there waiting for his. I make the Frappuccino first, add both flavors, chocolate drizzle the way I was showed, and add whipped cream.

"One light hazlenut caramel Frappuccino, chocolate drizzle, extra whip. No cherry." I look at Kellin. He walks over here with his wallet in hand.

"How much?"

"Uh, $5.16"

"Okay," He says, handing me the change. "Uh, keep the change Vic." His face gets red. I'm sure my face is pretty red too.

"Thanks" I say, and I move on to the next costumer.

When I get home, the house reeks of weed. I walk downstairs to where I know he'll be. When I get down there, it's like someone set off a fog machine. He had two of his buddies down here with him. Devin Jardine? I think that's his name. And Josh. Josh was on the soccer team with us. Even though he's a "pot head" He's a pretty smart kid. He majors in science. Probably why he's also good at baking. His cookies are the best.

I walk through the smoky room to get to Mike. I hand him a note from the coach that says if he misses another practice, he can't play the next game. He reads the note and shrugs it off.

I head back upstairs and go to my room. I lay on my bed and pull out my phone. I look for Kellin on twitter and see his twitter handle is saved as "gay panda" That's cute. Mines "Bi Felicia" I came up with it myself. I'm not that creative. I decide to follow him and send him a DM.

Bifelicia: heyy
Gaypanda: hiiii
Gaypanda: who is this lolz
Bifelicia: Viicccc lolz
Gaypanda: oohh heyyy Vic :))
Bifelicia: Kells I gotta tell you somethiiinngggg
Gaypanda: OMG WHAT???
Bifelicia: I'm bi...?
Gaypanda: OMG I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!! :))))

That went better than expected. Now, to tell Mike. Hopefully he'll be supportive. When all his friends are gone, and the house is no longer filled with smoke, I bring Mike upstairs to the kitchen. He's eating some chicken wings from the fridge by the time I'm ready.

"You might be wondering why I brought you up here."

He nods.

"Well.. Mike there's something I need to tell you." I start playing with my hands and I look into my lap. This is harder than I thought. I take a deep breath and start.

"So, you know how I like girls" idiot "well.. I kinda like boys that way too.." my voice trails off.

"Are you serious? Vic, are you saying you're bi?" I nod. "How'd you find out?"

"Uh, I don't really know? I came out to the team a while ago but they hate me for it. You weren't there when I did."

"Wow. I don't really care. As long as my brother is happy, I'm happy."

I can't believe he took that so well. I give him a small smile and head up to my room. I check my phone.

Gaypanda: Viicccc
Gaypanda: answeeerrrrr meeeee
Bifelicia: I'm baaccckkkk
Gaypanda: YAAAYYY :D))
Bifelicia: lolz Kells has double chins
Gaypanda: prouldy!
Bifelicia: OMG you should totally come ooveeerrr
Gaypanda: I don't know where you liivveeee :(((

I give him my adress and it turns out that he lives two blocks away from my house. How convenient. I think about earlier, how he had that really specific order. He's so weird. But. That thought soon leaves my mind when I hear a knock at the door. I bolt out of bed and rush down the stairs shouting "I got it!" To Mike. When I open the door, kellin is waiting on the porch swing. He looks so cute. I invite him inside and get a better look at him. He's wearing the same thing he was wearing this morning, only now he had a beanie on. Black skinny jeans, TOMS and a hoodie. Even for San Diego it does get a little colder when the sun goes down.

"You look nice." I say. Wholeheartedly.

"As do you.." He trails off and glances at my arms. Shit. I forgot to put bracelets on. My cuts and scars were visible and you can practically see my bone my arms are so small. "Vic.." at this point I'm practically a dam holding back water. "Why would you do that?" Why do you care? We became friends yesterday.

"I don't want to talk about it."

"Okay, but know, you're not alone." He rolls up his sleeves and his arms are covered with scars themselves.

"Your skin is too flawless for these scars." Did I really just say that?

"Vic.." Even though he's sad, I still loved the way my name sounded against his lips. "Turn around..." He was whispering now.

"WHAT THE FUCK VIC?!?" Mike was screaming at me. "WHY DIDN'T YOU COME TO ME?" Tears were welling in his eyes. I ran to my room, kellin following behind me. But when I got to my room, I didn't stop. I went to my bathroom and pulled out my old friend. I start to pull it across my wrist. The cold metal blade felt good on my skin in a way.

Kellin was now at the door. Shouting my name and asking if he can come in. I stop what I'm doing and I move away from the unlocking door. Tears streaming down my face. He barges in and kneels on the floor next to me.

"Why are you doing this to yourself? You're beautiful. You shouldn't do this."

"But you did it. You're beautiful too."

"Let's get you cleaned up." He didn't even acknowledge that I said he was beautiful. He turns on the sink and washes my wrist, making sure to be gentle. He then told me to give him all my blades. So I did. We then flushed them down the toilet. Then he did something I didn't expect him to. He took my arm in his hands, and gently placed a kiss on each of my cuts.

God he was perfect. I took this time to risk everything. I leaned in, and kissed him on the lips. But the thing that made it all okay? He was kissing me back.