Autumn Leaves

Four

Hey, back in kellin's point of view for this chapter.
Hope you enjoy :)
Jennay•*•*•*•
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I kissed him. I kissed his lips. God that felt so good to me. I'm sitting on his bed with him in my arms, him cuddled up to me. He was too beautiful to cut. I didn't understand why he would do it. It's not worth it. I pill him close to me. He was crying now.

"Vic.. what's wrong?" I whispered into his ear. "Tell me.."

"I don't deserve to be here."

"Yes you do. Don't ever say that."

"No Kellin I don't. I don't feel as if I should be here. My parents are never home and Mike doesn't really focus on helping me. He'd only blab about it to my mama and papa." He sat up a little more on the bed. "Not like they care.." his voice trailed off.

"Listen. I know we haven't known each other for very long, but I care about you. I really do. So if you ever feel like cutting again, take me by the arms and cut me as many times as you would yourself."

"I couldn't hurt you like that Kellin.." He let out an inhuman sound and collapsed and pulled me tightly to his chest. "I understand it now" I could barely hear him the way be talked.

I don't know how long we sat there, but pretty soon my phone started vibrating in my pocket. I pull away from Vic and answer my phone. It's my sister calling me.

"Hey Kailiegh"

"Kellin where are you? You aren't home and I tried calling you but you didn't answer."

"I'll be home in a little while I'm at a friends house."

"Okay.. just remember to use protection." She hung up the phone before I got to tell her it wasn't like that. I barely know him but he already knows he means a lot to me.

I stand up from Vic's bed and he looks up at me through watery eyes. I lean down and kiss him on the cheek.

"If you want me to stay I can, I'll just have to run home and grab a couple of things."

"I'd like that." He said in a small voice.

I kiss his cheek again and leave the room. I say goodbye to Mike and walk home to grab some extra clothes, charger, and my bag with my art in it.

When I get home, Kailiegh is waiting for me in the kitchen. I tell her I'm not staying long, and she gives me a strange look. I look for dad and he's not home. He'll understand. I go to my room and grab what I need. My art is already in the bag, so I toss in a Blink-182 shirt, black skinny jeans, boxers, lube, condoms, just in case. I grab my brush, toothbrush, toothpaste, and my stash of beef jerky. Who doesn't love beef jerky?

I explain I'm going to spend the night at "one of my friends" house and I leave. Vic's house is in walking distance so it's not like I'm going to take a long time getting there.

When I get back to Vic's house it's almost eight thirty. I didn't realize it was that late. I knock on the door and wait for someone to answer. I lean against the railing on the porch and see someone coming to the door through the window. Vic. I stand up with my bag full of stuff slung around my shoulder. He opens the door and immediately wraps himself around me. I hug back and wrap around him the best I could with my bag.

We go inside together and we head to Vic's room. I set my bag on the floor and sit on the bed. I motion for him to sit by me.

"Come here" I say.

He sits on the bed next to me and leans on me. I could stay here forever. I think about what would happen if we started dating. I wonder if people would still like us. They would probably hate us. Nobody would like us anymore. I shake the thoughts from my head and adjust so Vic is somewhat on my lap. I never realized how small he was until now. He was mucsular, but small. Cute.

"Kellin.."

"Hmm?"

"Thank you.."

"No problem."

"Did you mean what you said? About me being beautiful..?"

"Of course I did. There's nothing in this world that would make me feel otherwise. I mean it. Every word. Vic, each time I look at you, I see one of the most beautiful people I know."

He starts to cry. "How can I be beautiful after what I did?"

"What you did will not change your beauty. You were beautiful before and you're beautiful now."

"Are you sure..?"

"Victor Fuentes I have never been more sure of anything in my life." By now, I'm kneeling on the floor in front of him so he can see me. I brush the hair from his face and I grab his hands. "You. Are. Beautiful. Weather you think so or not. I think you're beautiful. That matters right? All you really need is to have one person to think you're beautiful. I'm that one person right now."

"Thank you.. I needed that. A lot."

"You're welcome."

I still kneel on the floor in front if him and I look into his eyes. His eyes are dark. I can hardly tell if they're brown or black. Whatever they were, they were beautiful. If you fall in love, fall in love with their eyes. Their eyes never change. I love his eyes. They were basically the complete opposite of my bright green eyes.

I move to my bag and I take out my art. I turn to a page that I drew to remind myself I'll be okay. I tear it out and show it to Vic. It's a drawing of a heart made out of roses, and the words, "Darling, you'll be okay." on it.

As soon as he sees it he puts a hand to his mouth. "Did you draw this?"

"Yes."

"It's so good. Can I keep it?"

"Of course."

"Kellin..?"

"Yes, Vic?"

"Please stay."

"Always."

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Okay I'm sorry this chapter took forever to get published, I got caught up in school stuff, and boy stuff, and Halloween planning. It was just busy. Anyways, I hoped you enjoyed this chapter, and I hope you're enjoying this story so far.

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