I hate him all the lies, the waiting. I hate him, all the distance, this space feels like eternity.The love I feel, felt for this, this neither man nor boy but god.
I fell in love with his words his voice and most of all his actions. His self-immunilized me from hurt and loneliness. I hate him for leading me on and vanishing into a reflection of my past. I was lost in his soul but now I am only found in his memory.
This is why I hate not him but his personality, his skin, his character, his swagger and the flesh I see before me. This is not who nor what I fell for, head first into a stimulating sense of affection. I hated me for falling for him.
That smile and those eyes...
-LaKrystal Boyd
