You know that trick girls use to convince their boyfriends to come over and sleep to just pretty much do nothing? Yeah, that doesn't work on Jake. He wanted to go out today and maybe watch a movie later or something but in all honesty, I'm tired I want to sleep. But no, my whining and complaining did nothing so now I'm getting dressed to go meet him. I think it's a great plan to stay home and sleep but no, he has to be an energetic little shit. Lucky I love him smh.
Since I know he'll be late, like always, I decided to get myself a slice of pizza. No harm right? My favorite is ham pizza, not Hawaiian, ham. I sat at a table and after a while got up to throw away my trash. The pizza parlor wasn't very full. There was hardly anyone here. Yet again it's a Sunday and in a city of religious fucks, an atheist like myself doesn't really care about the whole "church and Jesus our savior" shit.
Throwing away my trash I could feel as if someone was watching me. It was weird because I was positive I knew no one here. I quickly threw out my trash and started heading for the door. Jake and I always met up at "our tree" whenever we went somewhere. But as I walked out I felt two arms go around me in a hug, it almost felt recognizable. I quickly tensed up as the familiar voice spoke, "I've missed you so much."
Jason? I can feel my eyes start to water up for almost no reason. Oh damn, I thought I'd never hear his voice again! I quickly turned around and hugged him back, not wanting to let go. The almost quiet sound of the background city noise seemed distant. I held onto him as tight as I could as I could hear him talking to me. Not knowing what he was saying I didn't lift up my head since it sounded like mumbles. He pulled me back and said, "Hey listen, I wanna hug all day too but we have to go somewhere private, okay? Cmon, follow me."
He grabbed onto my hand and led me to a nearby alley. My eyes were watery but I wasn't going to let my tears fall, at least not yet. He looked so familiar yet so different. He must already be 22 since my birthday is near. He's grown up so much, yet I'm still technically 19. What's the irony that way back in the beginning of this year I wrote a fucking song about this guy that almost ruined my relationship with Jake. Oh fuck... Jake. So many thoughts were going on in my brain that I didn't notice Jason waving a hand in front of my face.
"Hey you there? You zoned out a bit." I studied his face trying to think of what could have changed about it. He just looked the same, but so different... I don't know how that would work. I didn't realize how much I missed him until he was right in front of me.
"I-I've missed you so much..." I put a hand to my mouth, it still won't run in my brain that he's standing in front of me. A small smirk appeared on his face as I looked up at him. It seemed that he towered over me more than before.
"Like I said, I missed you too. I've been counting down the days they would let me out from that hell." Oh my gosh! That's right! Jason was in fucking jail up until now I guess. I can't believe I fucking forgot.
"Oh god, I forgot you were in jail! Did you just get out? How'd you know I was at the pizzeria?... Heh." A smirk appeared on his face as I smiled as well at my last comment. He put his hands in his pocket as he looked at me up and down.
"I got out a month ago, I have no family to call my own so I hitch hiked from Washington over here... Doing some interesting stuff to get hitch hiked... Using the small amount of money I had, I stole most of my food and bought a small portion of it. So far it seems I haven't changed a bit huh?" He looked at me as I crossed my arms.
"And how did you find me at a pizzeria may I ask?"
"Well I knew you liked pizza, and the only good pizzeria here is this place so I just waited until I saw my familiar pink haired girl again." He grinned as if he did something widely successful and it made me laugh. His expression changed as he then looked down at the floor.
"In all seriousness, I did miss you... And I know 18 year old me wouldn't say it but, I'm sorry I was mad at you back then Serah. I must have made you feel like shit, blaming you for being caught." He paused and only slightly looked up at me. Damn, what happened to him? He never said sorry, even if it did happen, 4 years ago?
"Hey don't say sorry. It's okay, what happened back then is in the past. All that matters is that you're finally here! You're not leaving anymore, right?" I waited for his response and after not getting one I knew something was up. I leaned down to try and see his face but it didn't work. His black silhouette stood in front of me motionless.
"Serah, I'm not staying in Blossom City." He looked up and his face just spelled sympathetic.
"Wait, what do you mean you're not staying? You just got here! You can't leave..." Feelings of confusion, frustration and sadness started to overcome me. I can't loose him again! I lost him once, not twice!
"Serah listen, I came here to see you. I need to go after this." He kept his hands in his pocket as I started talking.
"But, why! You can't just go! Why are you leaving? Why are you leaving me?..." I could feel the tears in my eyes come back. I don't want to loose him again. Him coming back would definitely bring up controversy in my family, but it's not like I give a fuck about what they think. I just don't want him to go... He put both hands on my shoulder as he spoke.
"Serah listen, the last guy I hitch hiked with was really nice to me. Long story short, he's going to give me a ride back to his place and help me get a job there with my record. Trust me, I would love to stay here... I just can't pass this opportunity." I could feel the tears slowly run down my cheek as I kept wiping them away.
"W-where are you going?..." He gave an jokingly innocent smile.
"It's-it's not that far... He just lives in Denver Colorado. Nearby, right?" I could slowly feel myself shaking. Denver wasn't far no not at all, I just know he won't tell me where he's going in Denver so I can't even visit. After uncontrollably shaking and crying for a bit Jason pulled me into a hug. I quietly cried into his black shirt as he held onto me and rubbed his hand up and down my back. How am I supposed to be given him back, but then find out it's for a few minutes?
"Hey, hey Serah. Relax, look..." He pulled me away from him as I continued to look down at the floor. He lifted my head up and wiped some of my tears. "I'll be back I promise, okay?" I couldn't find the words to speak. My trembling just continued as he held onto my shoulders. I understand he's doing this for good reason but, the reason is hurting me.
"Serah, don't come looking for me, please. I don't want to hurt you again, I won't be able to live with myself if I did. This is my one request from you." He kept talking and my crying was getting worse. This isn't fair! I'm not even allowed to visit or anything? This is fucking bullshit! And he actually thinks he could "hurt" me again? He never did! Why do I have to be the unfortunate one and fall for someone like him!
I knew I was hurting him because I was crying, but I couldn't get myself together to stop. Until I could finally control my sobbing, Jason wiped away the last of my tears and I looked up at him.
"I'm going to miss you so much Jason. Please keep your promise and come back, please..." He nodded and said, "I'll try my best to come back okay?" I kept looking at him quietly trembling as I thought of my next move. I quickly leaned forward and his familiar lips met mine. He put his hands to the sides of my face as I wrapped my arms around his neck. I'm going to miss him so much. I wish this one moment would last forever, and I didn't have to let go of him when it ended.
As he pulled back, he leaned his forehead against mine and smirked. His personality might have changed, but that cliche smirk of his never will.
"I don't think I ever told you but, I love you so, so much Serah, please don't forget that." As his words echoed in my head I could remember the night I told him the same thing but he turned me down. Our roles were not going to be switched now so I smiled back.
"I love you too Jason." A smiled creeped onto his face. I laughed at his stupid response as he closed his eyes. "I have to go Serah..." My smile almost immediately disappeared. My one moment had ended. I nodded and he backed away from me. He slowly started walking away, back where we originally came from, until he stopped. His tall figure in a black jacket, dark jeans and boots stopped and looked up in front of him.
"Goodbye baby girl..." I smile slowly crept on my face as the nickname I was waiting for finally came.
"Goodby Mr.Gatling, until next time." I can tell he smiled in response because he looked down at the floor. He started walking away and after a few minutes I could find myself to move from the wall I was pressed against. Thoughts of Jake and him wondering where I was started to flow into my mind. I stayed still as I smiled, and felt the buzz in my jeans repeatedly continue. I walked out of the alley to be greeted by more people than I remembered being out and about in the city. I made my way to a public bathroom and saw my eyes weren't too badly blood shot. I smiled to myself in the mirror as I got ready to head over to where Jake was.
"I'm going to miss you Gatling." I quietly said to the mirror.
