No, Just Bestfriends

chapter 20 "you left your soul too"

"That seems about it." Luna cleared her throat as I laid on her stomach. Some how it was comfy surprisingly because she was skinny, she reread my list and bit her lips reading them. "You better not chicken out Mrs.Gray." she looked down at me, her brown eyes with humor. I cracked a smile, "Oh please when have I ever chickened out." I lied, wow I'm really full of shit.

"May I name them all?" She lowered the paper, it looked as if she was about to name the day and time and month. "I....never mind." She curved her lips, "Thats what I thought." Feeling impowered.

"Don't get to full of yourself Lulu.", I smirked at her as her freckles rised up showing all her teeth. She looked back at the note that was telling what me and my boyfriend will be doing in the next 25 days. And it felt like a clock, a ticking time bomb to his death. It was like a rush hour to believe and feel that the life you lived was worth it...if you had put enough work in. It bothered me to see him trying to act non shalom about the whole thing. Just so I could get the comfort.

He was wrong his logic is so wrong, I could never feel comfort I'm sorry to say. But how can I? I knew him since I was five years old amd ever since then he had my back and i had his front.

My bottom lips had bite marks from all the thinking, Luna began combing through my hair with her hands as if she could hear my thoughts. I don'tknow what I would do without her, it was like we had a telepathic connection. I breathed in deeply smelling cinnamon and apples wrap around my nose, the smell of Luna's sheets and room was soothing. "So Arianna I've been meaning to tell you this,  I just havent gotten around it because of the chaos thats been roaming around us." She swallow and i looked up at her.

Her eyes fluttered before she began to talk, "Well I've been having feelings for another person..." she looked away from my eyes and up to her ceiling like she wanted to avoid her own lips, "And this person is?" I waited for a response as she blushed horrendously. "Well lets just say she-"

"So its a girl." Her eyes popped open like she seen me do a frecking backflip. See Luna has this little habit she does before she lies. She would scratch a certain part of her head and run the lies through her mouth like she was a nun. She scrathed her head, "No its a boy." She licked her lips and my chest burned with fire because she lied and looked as if she has no guilt.

I bite my lips as I looked Towards her she felt intimated at my stare, she moved her lavender locks from her lashes. "Why are you lying to me." I gave her a stone cold look as if I was slowly planning her death. I could tell her heart skipped when I asked she scratched her head again but this time her eyebrows farrowed. "What do you mean, I'm not lying." She lifted herself up with her elbows. It triggered me to turn and lay on my elbows.

"Look Luna if you're gonna lie to me, then whats the point of telling me? Keep it hundred or dont tell me at all. I don't judge and you know i will never judge you or anyone." She sighed at me feeling there was no hope of lying. "Look it's because I'm having a hard time digesting this myself. I'm sorry....I feel like a monster. How could I hurt somebody that's so sweet and selfless." I nodded my head waiting for her to continue my ears were drumming from curiosity.

"I'm starting to have feelings with this girl, I never been really attracted to another girl before. But I don't know she makes me feel free and wild and my life is endless, the worst thing is....it's his younger sister." She looked away from me, i swallowed every word that was thrown to me. That right there was a situation. I don't know if it's because she's missing that female figure of hers.

"Is it because of your mother Luna." Her eyes focused on me and I gulped she never thought of it like that. She never had that question thrown at her, it was no doubt she was missing a mother. She was empty and no matter how much she smiles and shows the warmth of her smile to us-to me, I know what was eating her alive inside. She was drowning, but she wasn't drowning alone.