A Passion Crime To Take What's Mine - Andley

All I Know Is What You Left, A Love I Cant Erase

Hi, so, erm... I promise this story will be better soon, no more putting my emotions into it. I t was going to be better but I was being screamed at when I wrote this and I was in tears, but even so, I think it's pretty up-beat for how I was feeling. So I hope you enjoy this chapter, bye for now, My Little Batling Army:3

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Ashley's P.O.V:

I was sat in the living area with the rest of the guys, although I wasn't really listening to what they were saying; I was more in thought. It pains me to think that I can't sleep with my fiancée... wait, no, I can't call him that now... I don't know what I can call us anymore. Are we together? Are we over? I just don't have a clue. We never officially ended it, but we can't really talk to each other, nor are we staying by each other, so what does that count us as? All I know is that I love him, and he won't leave my head, all I can think about is how much I wish we could be back to what we were just a few days ago, when it was fine for us to love each other, when the biggest issue was what we were going to do that day. But now it's so awkward to even talk to him now, it is horrible.

“Ash, are you okay?” Jinxx asked, causing Jake to grunt. I don't know why Jake to hates me so much right now, I mean, I thought he seemed annoyed with me this morning but I thought that feeling may pass after time, yet it doesn't seem to have. If anything, he seems even more annoyed with me than he did this morning because now he gets agitated whenever anyone else talks to me too. It's almost as if he wants me to suffer even more than I already am for losing the man I love for a lie.

“Not really, I miss Andy, but I don't know what I can do about that...”

“Maybe you shouldn't have cheated on him then!” Jake snapped, causing a stab of pain to shoot through me; did he really believe I would cheat on him when I love him so dearly?

“I didn't.”

“Sure, so why did Josh show up at your wedding?”

“how the fuck should I know? I don't know what the hell was going through that dude's mind!”

“Look, Jake, Ashley is right, I believe him. He wouldn't do a thing to hurt Andy, you saw the way he was hurting when Andy ran from the wedding, so why would you think he would have done something to bring that on, knowing full well he would lose Andy” CC objected, flashing a smile at me, to which Jake merely grunts thoughtfully. I just hope he will soon understand that I wasn't lying, and that I do in fact miss and love Andy.

Jake got up from his spot on the sofa and walked to the sleeping area to rest for a while. Although we got to Europe today, we have a mere few free hours before we have to perform. Normally, I would be super stoked on going out on stage and performing, but, for the first time, I am actually partly wishing I didn't have to go out there tonight. But, by the same token, I wanted to go out and see if the pressure of performing would be beneficial to the relationship between Andy and me. Who knows, maybe it would cause us to start talking properly, I mean, the fans still think we are together. They don't know what happened at the wedding. They are unaware of the complications right now, so they would be expecting us to be standing side by side, holding hands and being sweet to each other. Maybe that push of pressure would force us to talk and sort everything out, but then maybe it would make everything a whole lot worse. You just can't be sure.

Checking the time, I get up from my seat and grabbed a pen and one of my notebooks. Scribbling my feelings and thoughts down into it, I felt a hand touch my shoulder, Jinxx.

“I believe you, so does Sammi, we don't think you would have done something like that because we know just how much you love Andy. He loves you too,” a tear rolled down my cheek as his soft words entered my ears. People believe me.