"What are you doing here? How did you get here? Why are you here?" I throw question after question at Ayden as I walk away from Jared and closer to Ayden.
"You're not drunk," Ayden observes.
"No, Ayden, I'm not." I confirm his observation, crossing my arms across my chest.
"What were you doing with him?" he asks, looking over at Jared. I look back then answer him.
"Nothing. I didn't do anything with him-"
"Bullshit!" Ayden yells, causing me to jump. "First you're with some Tristan dude, now this guy? How many guys are you going to sleep with before you realise-"
"I didn't sleep with him!" I yell at him. "I didn't kiss him, I didn't kiss Tristan, and I sure didn't sleep with either of them." I firmly tell Ayden.
"I thought you and Tristan were dating."
"We're not." I say with a straight face. Before I know what's next, Ayden grabs my face and kisses me, hard. I can practically feel people around us, staring at us.
I don't know whether to slap him, or kiss him back.
I choose the first one.
I pull away from the kiss and slap Ayden pretty hard, causing his head to turn. I just look at him with a disgusted look on my face and walk away.
As I find my way out of the house with my head down, tears begin to fall from my eyes. I'm thankful that the frat house isn't far from the campus so I can just walk back to my dorm. It's only a couple blocks away.
Ayden thinks that just because we cleared some things up over the phone, that he can just come to America and get me back. It doesn't work that way. What if I had told him that Tristan and I are actually dating? How would he have reacted to that?
I arrive in my dorm room and it's dark and quiet. I turn on the lamp on my desk and sit on my bed.
I just can't believe this happened. What would I have done if Ayden didn't show up tonight and it was just me and Jared? Would I have let him kiss me?
So many questions.
—
It's been a couple days since the kiss with Ayden happened. I haven't heard from him since. I don't know whether he's still here in LA, or if he's gone back to England.
Faith opens the door and walks in holding a magazine in her hands along with her books. She walks over to me and just hands me the magazine.
Molly May tells ex-boyfriend, Ayden Carson, she's not dating anyone just to get Carson back.
Molly was seen at a party with her ex-boyfriend, Ayden Carson. He asked her if she was dating anyone, and lying, she said no. The YouTube sensation is dating another YouTube sensation, Tristan Matthews. Is this the end of her and Tristan?
"What?" I say to myself and look up at her and she gives me a sympathetic look.
'This isn't good. You need to tell everyone the truth... about everything.' Faith signs to me. The truth?
"I guess I do." I talk and sign back. "I'm going to to see Tristan so we can set this whole thing straight." I tell her and grab my phone and leave.
I arrive at their house and tell Tristan about what had happened. I tell him that we need to make a video telling everyone that he and I aren't dating. And neither are Ayden and I.
Tristan and I record the video and upload it.
"Thank you for doing this. I'm just in really deep shit right now and am confused. I don't know what I'm doing. I just want to take a break from life. I've got way too much going on with YouTube and you and Ayden and-"
"Hey, it's okay. I completely understand." Tristan cuts me off.
"Thank you." I almost whisper.
—
On my way back to the dorm, I get stopped by someone who I had never seen before on the campus.
"Molly May?" The girls says as she walks over to me. She's got brown hair and piercing blue eyes.
"Yeah?" I hesitantly reply.
"Hi, I'm Andrea Wilkens. I'm new here." she says. That explains why I've never seen her.
"Hi." I say back to her. This girl seems a bit iffy to me.
Andrea and I start walking back to the dorms and we figure out that her dorm is right next to mine.
"How long have you lived in LA?" I ask her as we walk up the stairs.
"I just moved here from Ohio. I don't know the area that well." She tells me.
Andrea and I spend the rest of the day just hanging out and talking. She seems pretty nice. I don't have a reason to not like her.
—
As the days pass, all I do is go to class and sit in my dorm doing homework. I haven't gone out to parties or any of that. I haven't seen Tristan or heard from Ayden.
Andrea has come over a lot just to hang out and talk. She's a really nice person. I've completely opened up to her and I tell her just about everything.
Don't get me wrong, she's not replacing Katie, I still hang out with Katie. It's just that Katie spends a lot of time with her boyfriend and I don't see her as much. Andrea likes spending time with me.
The days and weeks go by of me staying out of drama around the city, or the internet at least. I go to class then go home to do homework. I occasionally hang out with some people, but that's it.
Ayden visited me yesterday. It went a lot better than I thought it would. I thought it'd resort to yelling and fighting like it always does, but I was wrong.
Flashback to yesterday.
"Why did you come?" I ask Ayden as he stands in my room alone with me.
"I needed to see you. You know me," he says, getting closer to me. "I can't stay away from you for long."
"I know." I almost whisper as I stand next to my bed by the wall. Ayden begins to move closer to me, closing in on me. He has me cornered.
"I saw the video that you and that guy made. He doesn't deserve you." he begins to whisper.
"You don't either." I reply back, turning my head away from him. He's so close that I smell the little cologne he puts on himself.
"I know I don't, but I'm trying here. I love you, Molly. I never stopped loving you. I need you." Ayden puts emphasis on the last sentence.
"We can't keep doing this, you know. This whole back and forth thing; it's not healthy. You've got your band and I've got college-"
"Please don't do this..." he sounds hurt.
"I love you, Ayden, but you can't keep leaving every time something goes wrong."
"Then stop giving me a reason to leave." He looks me straight in the eye.
I don't remember much of what happened after that, but it wasn't a lot. I decide that I'm going to actually go out today instead of staying in my dorm. I walk across campus until I find a small restaurant and go inside.
The second I walk in the restaurant, that's when I see him.
Not Ayden.
Zach.
