define love; matthew espinosa

twenty

i was beginning to cry, i opened my mouth to talk when he took his finger putting it up to my mouth.

"shhhh not now." he said as he wrapped his arms around me giving me a hug, i hugged him in return while he began rubbing my back with his thumb. in his arms i felt safe, it felt nice and i missed this feeling how could i ever leave him for such a stupid reason.

he started to release from our hug and he stood in front of my face with his arms crossed.

"what happened?" he said with a huff and a crook. he looked so unhappy and heartbroken.

"i-i-i don't know how to explain." i couldn't just tell him straight up but i might as well.

"well what happened between us? what did i do?"

"nothing matthew nothing, your great you-your fantastic i'm so lucky to have you in my life but i just couldn't stand seeing you suffer....." he gave me a confused look when he spook up.

"suffer, how did i ever suffer in our relationship? how could you possibly ever make me suffer?" he looked at me with his big puppy dog hazel eyes with sympathy and love.

"between keeping secrets from my father, still on and off with austin, you can't even be in my house with my dad being the same room. matt, we can't even go out in public that much anymore while my father is still in town.

then we got austin who is like my fathers little spy to watch me. matt your not safe and i just don't wanna lose you, i can't lose you." he unfolded his arms and came closer to me, he put his hands on my shoulders and began rubbing my shoulders softly.

"stephanie, there is no way in hell i would ever leave you especially now. the first time i met you i knew i was in love with you. you are the best thing that has ever happened to me and i know that sounds cliche but that's because i'm that type of guy.

your dad is not the controller of your love life or your life for that matter especially austin. you know what i've realized, he really does care of about you he's just doing what your dad wants he kind of reminds me of an over protective brother of some sort.

but anyways after tomorrow were moving on from our lives, going to college and becoming old and i want to experience all of that with you, forever and ever i want to go to college with you i want to grow old with you and have a family i want to do everything possible with you because i love you with all my heart.

i love everything small about you and everything big. i will grow your fathers trust one day and i will prove to him that i'm gonna treat you the best, and i'm never gonna let you go. no matter what." i'm crying, i'm balling, everything that he said i could see all the feelings in his eyes just being poured out.

i couldn't wait to spend the rest of my life with him and everything more. i grabbed his face and smashed my lips onto his, we began to have a heated make out session when he pulled away taking a deep breath.

"your beautiful you know that?"

"i know because that's what you always tell me." i smirked he smiled and kissed my temple. he grabbed my hand gently walking me to my car. when we arrived at my car i faced my back towards the car as he leaned me against it.

he had one hand above my head on the car door and the other hand near my waist, he gave me a gentle kiss on the lips.

"call me later please."

"of course." i smiled as i got into my car, he stood beside the car until i pulled out of the parking lot of the school. i waved goodbye to him driving to my house, tomorrow's gonna be a good day.