she is one of those model type girls. she has a ton of different guys interested in her. her and her mom talk about EVERYTHING, and her mom told that outside one day that she loved me (this was a few months ago). but she hasn't showed me it at all. She's showed me that she has feelings for me and she says she cares a lot about me, but I am not sure if she loves me. she is really messed up emotionally. she works full time/school and all she does is study. she complains how she NEVER even has free time for herself. I hardly ever get alone time with her, the only time I get with her is when I'm at church. she is constantly smiling at me, touching me, holding me, laughing at everything I say, joking about us getting married, having kids
etc.. etc...she told me she's scared to start anything with me because it would be so awkward if it went wrong (because we grew up going to the same church and would continue)...its honestly a REALLY REALLY long story.
she went to florida and came back in a long distance relationship with this guy. I really do believed they probably love eachother and this is real. I saw her this past sunday after not seeing her for 3 weeks and she was all dressed up. she sat next to me and she was doing a lot of staring/smiling, touching me. we both had our arms crossed and held eachothers arms against eachother. we both kept rubbing, touching eachother legs, tons of smiling, staring, etc. I havent gotten prayed for in a long time, so i decided to go up when he asked. i came back to my seat afterwards and she was wiping tears from her eyes. i kept looking forward and she was rubbing my shoulder to comfort me. she just kept staring at me and I saw her in the corner of my eye. all i wanted to do was cry everytime she was staring at me. my eyes kept getting watery and I bumped her and told her to stop staring at me in a joking way. we talked for a min or two and she asked me if I would ever consider moving to florida. i told her no, this is where our family, friends and our LIVES are here. then church ended and we both went out sep ways...
