Over And Over Again → Book Three

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~ Vanessa ~

"Nathan?" I call looking around. Everywhere is just completely white, as if the world doesn't exist.

"Hello?" I call again louder.

"Dear Vanessa" A voice cackles and I gasp turning to see...myself, and Ollie. I step forward but I'm shielded by thick Crystal clear glass. Tears sting my eyes as I watch the scene before me. Ollie's hands are all over my body, his lips forced onto mine. "No please!" I punch my fists against the glass. I watch myself as I struggle under his grip and he is ripping my clothes to shreds. I shake my head, sliding down the glass to my knees sobbing into my hands.

"No!" I scream into my pillow, gripping the duvet tightly and my eyes are clamped shut.

"Nessa, Nessa, Nessa..baby it's okay" Nathan's voice rasps in my ear and I gasp sitting up and my chest heaves up and down.

"Baby it's okay, everything's alright. It was just a dream" Nathan rubs my back up and down and I rub my sweaty forehead. "I..I'm sorry" I gulp feeling guilty. "Don't ever be sorry" He wraps his strong arms around me and he pulls me into his chest. I flutter my eyes shut and I inhale his comforting scent.

"Was it about him again?" Nathan asks.

I nod. "Yep."

My nightmares have been going on for a good couple of weeks. Nathan has never been less comforting every time. Although I always apologise, because I feel completely guilty, waking him up every night.

"What time is it?" I cringe at my morning voice.

"Five thirty," Nathan responds. "Do you wanna go back to sleep?"

"No, I don't think I can. I may as well get up now" I push the covers off me and I go to stand up but Nathan grabs my hand.

"I'll get up with you then."

"No" I say quickly. "No, you need your sleep more than I do. Really, go back to sleep."

"Are you sure?" He quirks an eyebrow.

"Yes of course" I chuckle leaning down and pressing a kiss to his lips. "I love you."

"I love you more" He whispers before watching me walk out of the room.

Once I get downstairs, I pour myself some cereal followed by milk and a cup of coffee. I eat my breakfast whilst catching up on Once Upon A Time.

An hour later, Nathan comes downstairs wearing only a pair of grey sweatpants and he greets me with a kiss on the head. A few minutes later he returns with a plate of toast and a cup of tea and he joins me on the sofa and he eats.

"I'm gonna to and quickly shower, I've got a meeting with the boys soon" Nathan brushes crumbs off his lap and stands up.

"Alright" I smile and he places his hands on my legs and leans down, kissing my lips.

"God I love kissing you" He smirks making my cheeks flush red, he never stops making me blush. "And I love when you blush," He pecks my cheek.

"I love every piece of you" He mumbles against my neck.

"And I love you too" I breathe as he peppers kisses around my jaw and my neck. "And you also have to shower before your meeting, so go on mister" I say and he groans making me giggle and he goes upstairs to have his shower. I turn my head and I notice something on the wall I haven't seen before. I furrow my eyebrows, standing up and walking over to it.

I gasp and my eyes begin to water when I see it's a framed photo of Nathan and I on our wedding day. He has his arms wrapped around me from behind, I'm looking up at him whilst he's looking down at me. We are smiling like crazy, we are just so happy to finally be married after so long.