Nine Stars

➸ Chapter 3

" Wherever I am I always find myself looking out the window wishing I was somewhere else. "  ― Angelina Jolie

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Third Night

Tuesday. 7 more days to find out whether my wish will come true or not. I was about to leave for school when suddenly, I heard a loud voice screaming my name. Oh well, of course it was Autumn.

" Cassidy Maxwell, who told you to leave me alone, huh? I thought we're going to skip class for the whole week? Omg, don't tell me you forgot about it? " This girl talks too much, annoys me.

" No one told me. Yes, we're going to skip class for the whole week and no, i didn't forget about it. I was going to school because I have to tell something to Cameron. " Her eyes looks like it's going to fall anytime now. 

" Wait what? Why? " I grabbed her arm and we took the ride to school. btw, i'm not answering her question.

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We were in school and we ran towards Cameron in the pool area.

" Cam, we need to talk. " Autumn left us and I sighed heavily.

" What is it babe? I was worried because you were missing yesterday, i thought you were lost. " He hus me so tight and I started crying. I can't take it anymore.

" Babe? Why are you crying is something wrong? tell me babe. " Ughhh. I have to do this it's for the best. I wiped my tears away and gave my sweetest smile to Cameron telling that i'm okay but in fact, i am not.

" Cameron, let's end our relationship. " And i started crying again.

" Wait what? Babe, let's talk about this. what happened? Am i not enough for you? Did i do something wrong? " And that's my cue. I ran away from him because I might change my mind if he begs me to stay with him. I have my reasons, and I can't tell anyone about it. I ran towards Autumn and we rode into my car to the park.

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" Cass, what's wrong? Are you okay? What happened? " I can't talk. I'm still not yet over from crying. I just cried into Autumn's shoulders and she hugs me in return.

" Cass, it's gonna be okay. Don't cry. I'm here for you. Everything's gonna be alright. We're here at the park Cassidy. Now, smile. " She wiped my tears away and I gave a shy smile. We got off and we entered the park. We just sat down and remained silent.

Birds tweeting. Trees dancing. Green grass swaying. Autumn broke the silence in between us.

" Cass, what happened? Tell me please. " I sighed heavily. I have no choice but to lie to her.

" Me and Cameron broke up. I decided to end it because I don't want to be with him anymore. " Lame reason but that's the only thing I can tell her. I can't say that I broke up with him it's because of the stupid wish that makes me overthink that it would come true and that would affect our relationship. 

" Okay then. But why are you crying a while ago? Do you still love him? " That question. It hits me. Yes, i badly do but why did I give up? I don't even know if that damn wish would come true? That wish starts to mess up my life. Fuck.

I paused for a while and said " No, I don't love him and I don't need him from my life. " Telling that wasn't easy. It's for Autumn to believe that I broke up with him is because i don't love him anymore. I wanted to tell Cameron that I love him so much but I can't do it. It's for the best. :(

Autumn stood and she pulled me up and we ran towards the rides. I can't properly breathe, Autumn runs too fast. I catched my breath and we stopped in front of the roller coaster. Seems scary.

" Cass, come on. Cheer up. Let's go for a ride. " WHAT?! I CAN'T DO THAT. SHIT.

" Nahhh, I'm gonna stay here for a while. Go enjoy the ride, okay? I'll be wait----- " She didn't let me finish what I'm saying instead she grabs my arm and we rode to the roller coaster. Bad girl.

" WAAAAAHHHH! STOOOPPPP! STOOOPPP! STOP THE FUCKING RIDE. I CAN'T DO IT ANYMORE. I'M GONNA THROW UP! FUCK! AUTUMN, THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOUUUU! I CURSE YOU TO DEATH BECAUSE OF THIS. " i screamed at the top of my lungs. goodness, i think i'm gonna throw up but thankfully, the ride ended. Phew. That was a close one.

" AUTUMNNNNNNN ALEXANDRIAAAAAA STRIKEEELAAAANNDDDD! YOU COME BACK HERE YOU LITTLE PIECE OF CRAP! COME BACK HEREEEEEE! I WON'T LET YOU GET AWAY FROM THIIIIISSS! YOU'RE DOOMED! " I literally mean it. yes yes. time for revenge. BWAHAHAHAHAHA. AND WE RAN LIKE IDIOTS CHASING EACH OTHER AHAHAHAHAHA.

" GOTCHAAAAAA! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA TIME FOR REVENGE ALEXANDRIAAAAAA BWAHAHAHAHAHA! " okay, now i'm like a witch gosh. Finally, i caught her. We just lied down to the grass and laughed our asses off like tomorrow's the end of the world. phew. that was exhausting but very fun. We watched the sun set and we head back to our houses.

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This was a very wonderful day. But of course, i wouldn't forget the time that Me and Cameron broke up. I sighed heavily, i wondered what would happen to me. I don't want to continue mauerbauertraurigkeit. I don't want to continue hurting other people's feelings. Fast forward the time to the last day please. :( I headed to the balcony and closed my eyes. Felt the wind swooshing in my face, and my hair is dancing because of the wind. And said the magic words.

" I wish for a happy life and not having scars with a knife "

Will this wish come true? I closed the doors of the balcony and went back to my room. I kept on overthinking. Many what ifs popping into my head, and these questions are left unanswered. When will I find the answers? I can't help it anymore. I can't wait for it any longer but i have to. Slowly closed my eyes and drifted myself to sleep hoping that when I wake up, everything would be alright.

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{ mauerbauertraurigkeit (n) ; the inexplicable urge to push people away, even close friends who you really like }