Nine Stars

➸ Chapter 1

One wish. One life. One person. Be careful on what you wish for. ~

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If you wish, you can never undo it. There isn't a time machine wherein you can go back to the past and undo it. No, there's no such thing as that. You're just too dumb to think that time machines exist. This is the reality and you can never erase the things you've done. I never knew that my wish would come true. I thought it was just a petty lie. but no, here I am living in this body in which i really don't know how I've become like this. I was wearing a grey muddy loose t-shirt, and a totally ripped pants and I was completely alone in the streets. Ugh, fuck this. How can i escape from this?

* flashback *

It was a cold, starry night and i can feel the coldness of the wind swiftly touching my skin. I was in the balcony holding a cup of chocolate hot milk and i just stared at the stars. My nanny said that when i wish in a star, and continuously do it for 9 consecutive days that wish would come true. Of course, i didn't believe at first but questions popped into my mind. I came to think of it like, what if it's true?

♬ Who are we? Just a speck of dust within the galaxy?
Woe is me, if we're not careful turns into reality
Don't you dare let our best memories bring you sorrow
Yesterday I saw a lion kiss a deer
Turn the page maybe we'll find a brand new ending
Where we're dancing in our tears ♬

I'm so tired of all the rumors around me. Yes, they do adore me but i know it's all fake. I know that they talk endlessly about me behind my back. They say crappy things and tell it to others. Do you know how hard it is to live like this? I'm all alone with no one to talk to who can never say crappy things about me. I was like a living puppet of the show that is showed infinitely. There's no harm in trying right? So i wished...

♬ God, give us the reason youth is wasted on the young
It's hunting season and this lamb is on the run
Searching for meaning
But are we all lost stars, trying to light up the dark?

I thought I saw you out there crying
I thought I heard you call my name
I thought I heard you out there crying

But are we all lost stars, trying to light up the dark?
But are we all lost stars, trying to light up the dark? ♬

I closed my eyes and said " I wish for a happy life and not having scars with a knife "

And then I slowly opened my eyes and saw the stars blinking and shining. Ugh what a wonderful view. I closed the doors of the balcony and head back to my bedroom. Hm, maybe its worth the try right? I changed into my night clothes and finished my cup of chocolate hot milk. I was about to sleep when someone knocked at my door.

" Come in. " It was my dad.

" Hey princess. Are you okay? Do you want me to sleep next to you? " aw. dad has always been there for me. Well, Mom is in the states. She's working as a fashion designer. Ugh, i miss her so much. :(

" Nope. Thankies dad. Dad, can i tell you something? " I fixed my position and faced Dad.

" Sure sweetie, what is it? "

" Dad, have you ever felt like you wanted to change your life so badly? " He cupped my face and raised my chin up.

" Well, yes. When I married your mom, i was a bad guy. Drunk every night and scolded her everyday for no reason. At that point, of course i really wanted to change my life and so here i am, in front of you giving you advices. I can really say that i changed my life for the better. " he looks at me like an opia.

" Wow. I'm so proud of you Dad. " I hugged him tightly like he was some sort of a huge teddy bear. Ahahaha.

" Anytime princess. Now, sleep okay? Tomorrow is school day so you need to take a rest. Good night sweetie. I love you. " He kissed me on the forehead and that was the sweetest thing. He turned off the lights and exited my room. Hm, maybe that wish wouldn't come true anyways, I don't believe it though. I closed my eyes and I slowly drifted to sleep.

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{ Opia (n) ; the ambiguous intensity of looking someone in the eye which can feel simultaneously invasive and vulnerable }

Author's Note: The next chaps are also part of the flashback. I will indicate on which the flashback ends so that you wouldn't be confused. ;) Thank you. :)