I woke up to feeling a sharp pain in my left leg. I open my eyes to see my mother smirking leaning against the door way, and a guy slashing my leg with the razor i used last night. I'm guessing the guy is my mothers "Boyfriend".I yelp then push him off.
"What's going on?! What was that for?!" I say furious while i yelp in pain. I look down toawrds my leg. Yup it's bleeding, bad.
" Don't use that tone of voice with me,Bitch!" My mother yelled.
"Get her." She demanded.
Next thing i know i'm pinned against the wall. The man's breath reeks of alcohol. I can feel his breath on my neck. I squeeze my eyelids as tight as they can go.
"Please...don't..." I whipser barley audible.
"What's the matter, Princess?" He chuckles then slashes my leg another 3 times.
I scream in pain. He gets a hold of my neck and tightens his grip. He presses his finger tips deep into my skin. The pain is unbareable.I shirek loudly.
"Let the bitch, go." She commands.
I then felt a sharp pain in my cheek and realized he had just slapped me. He then dropped me to the floor and kicked me. I got up, opened my eyes to see them leave.
"Oh and hurry up and get ready, We wouldn't want you to be late for school, Now would we?" My mother said with a deep smirk spread across her face.
I grab my phone on the bed and look at the time.
"6:30, Shit!. I only have 30 minutes to get ready!" I whisper to myself.
I qucikly threw on a tie dye hoodie, black jeans, and yellow sneakers. It stinged when in put on my jeans,I walked over to my mirror and looked and my neck. Just as i thought there were little purple bruises in the shape of fingertips.I placed my fingertips over the bruised ones. When i lightly pressed down,I fell in pain. My eyes started to tear up. I dabbed some conclear and foundation on the bruises and on my face. I put on quick eyeliner then chapstick, I then braided my hair in a fishtail braid. When i was done and decent looking I looked at my clock, it's exactly 6:40.I got my luggage and my school backpack and headed for the bus.I hopped aboard and turned on my iPod. Ed Sheeran- Drunk played. I sang along while on the bus, waiting to arrive at school.
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It was a long ride to school, but i finally made it. On the permission slip we were told to meet everyone in the back of the school. So i got my things and proceeded to walk to the back of the school. I saw the everyone who had health from school there, Mr.Bullock our health teacher collected our permission slips. Once we we're done we all got into the bus, this is going to be a LONG ride. I sat down next to Kaitlyn.
"Hi." I say in a mono-tone voice, I guess I'm still shooken up from this morning.
"What's wrong? And what are those marks on your neck? What happened?" Kaitlyn nearly screamed in my face.
"It's nothing." i say looking away.
"I really want to help, Please tell me?" She begged.
"I'll tell you later, I promise, Can we please just change the subject?" I asked.
"You better! Uhm okay...Did you know this ride is going to be 10 hours and 23 minutes long?" She replied.
I groaned. Why 10 hours? Well i should've known Battle Ground, Washington to San Francisco, Califorina would be long! Why are we even going over there anyways?! Especailly for health class! Maybe i should ask, or go to sleep. I'll ask then go to sleep.Damn i'm tired.
"Mr.Bullocks?!" i yelled.
"Yes Katie?" Mr.Bullocks replies walking towards my seat.
"Why are we even going to Califorina anyways?"
"Well you see Katie,We're entering the suicide part of class and San Francisco's Golden gate Bridge has had many succesful suicide attempts." He said going back to his seat.
I look over to Kaitlyn who is sleeping. Oh i love her. The Golden Gate Bridge eh? I take out my iPod and go on the internet tab i search the nearest hotel from there. The Sausalito is 2 miles from there. Hmmm. I wonder what hotel we're staying at. I look behind me to see the teacher-assistaint Ms. Greene.
"Mrs.Greene? Do you happen to know what hotel we will be staying at?" I ask her.
"Sausalito." She replies carelessly.
"Uhm Thanks." I say awkwardly.
2 miles eh? I can so walk that! I've been suicidal for a long time,and my attempts haven't worked. I've tried sliting my veins.Nothing. Also i've been to scared to hang myself or choke myself. Jumping off the bridge would be perfect! So fast! Almost painless.I'm tired of being in tears, being beatten, having Bulimia,being worthless, and being called names.What are you thinking katie? What about Kaitlyn? Don't be so selfish. I sigh and take deep breath in i close my eyes and let it out. When i open them again i see a popular girl named Skylar looking at my funny then turn to her follower Lindsey, then she startes laughing and pointing at me. What's thier problem?
"Nice bruises! Are they sex marks? What a whore!" She exclaims.
The whole class turned and looked at my being embarrased i hide my face. Mr.Bullock and Ms.Greene aren't aware they have thier head phones in! I saw them wearing headphones!
"Slut." I hear Aaron who is sitting in the seat infront of me mumble.
Maybe, Just maybe i'll rethink the sucide attemp idea. Maybe the Golden gate Bridge is my gate way to freedom! To happiness! To not feel scared, sad, regretful or sorrowful! I think i will do it. It sounds like agreat idea right now.Ride please be over with soon. I place my earphones back in and let the music flow threw my body. I lean my head back and close my eyes. This will be a long class trip i think before resting again.
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