Faking Smiles

Die, Emo Dyke

I froze.
They kissed.
I frantically searched my bag for my phone finding it under old receipts and gum wrappers.
S- you and Matt are still together right?
G-um yeah why?
S-I'm coming over, I'll explain then.
G-Ok
I locked my phone, paid for the coffee, and made my way to Gen's.
I got there like 10 minutes later because I ran like hell.
I knocked on the door, and was greeting by a genuinely-concerned-for-my-health-because-I-don't-run-because-asthma Gen.
"How the fuck did you get here so fast?" She asked as I ran past her in desperate need of a water bottle.
After I regained the ability to speak and breath like a normal person, I started babbling which I always do when I'm actually shocked.
"Ohmygod,soIsawMatt,rightButhewaswithsomeoneelse,buthe'swithyou,andkisses"
"Sage, breathe" Gen laughed at what she though was excitement, "I can't understand a thing you're saying"
"Oh sorry," I apologized and started over," okay so, I was at the cafe today, right? Well, I saw Matt there with this other girl, and I tried not to freak out because I honestly didn't think he would ever cheat on you because even though he's an asshole, I thought he loved you, but Gen, I am so sorry"
"Sorry about what?"
"He's cheating on you with Becca Turner, but honestly if he chose that fake ass bitch over you, you don't deserve him"
"I can't believe you, Sage"
"What? I just told you that your boyfriend is cheating on you, dumbass"
"He's not cheating on me. I knew he was meeting Becca at the cafe, he told me and he said they were working on a project together for French."
"No, no, Gen. He kissed her. I saw it with my own two eyes"
"Then maybe you should get those eyes checked because it was someone who looked like him. You never liked him anyways, so why should I trust you? If he said it's just a project, it's just a project."
"So you're going to believe him over me?"
"Well, I can't find a reason he would lie to me, but everyone knows you hate Matt."
"What the fuck?! I'm you're best friend! And you're going to believe that asshole!"
We were both screaming now, luckily Gen had been home alone.
"Well you sure as hell don't act like a best friend!" She screamed in my face.
I hadn't noticed the tears in her eyes until the started rolling down her cheeks. I softened.
"Gen." I wasn't screaming anymore, reality slapped my in the face at the sight of my best friend crying angry tears.
"No let me fucking finish. If you were my best friend, you would talk to me instead of cutting up your arm like the emo dyke you are. You would try to like my boyfriend because I love him . You wouldn't fucking kiss me and expect things to continue as normal." She started sobbing and sank to the floor. She quickly regained composure and stood to face me again.
"Get the fuck out of house and don't fucking come back" she spat before half-dragging me out of her house and slamming the door in my face.
I started walking to nowhere in particular. I checked my phone and I looked like I was going to join the black parade. I wonder when I started crying. I checked the time, not bothering the wipe away the black tears.
11:14
Mom would still be at work, and my brother Blake was probably passed out or high somewhere. I didn't feel like going home because at home are the blades and the blades are bad. But they're so comforting.
"No Sage stop" I reminded myself that I was better than this. A full blown relapse would make everything worse.
I went to the park even though it was hella late and I would probably get raped or something. No, this town is too small to have rapists,, everyone needs to get up at 5 for work or school no sane person would be put this late .
11:30
I sat on the swings, reflecting on today's events.
She fucking hates me. She hates me for everything. To her, I'm nothing more than an "emo dyke"
I couldn't take thinking about it anymore, I opened the tumblr app and was spammed with like 500 notifications. It was 50 asks. They were all anon. Usually, the asks people send me are nice, even the anon, and they compliment my blog. But these were all from the same person I think. They all said things like
"Kill yourself, no one likes you anyways"
And
"I hope you hit a vein next time you cut"
I continued to scroll to some messages from a little earlier and everything clicked into place when I saw a message that read
"Die emo dyke"
And I knew, it was her. Gen.

A/N
Kinda short,kinda shitty. Next one will be better I promise.
What do you guys think of bitchy Gen? I kinda hate her like idk she seemed pretty fake since the beginning and it worked out this way
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