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Tori's pov
Everything was going great. My career was kicking off. I had Jade. My friends. My dad, brother, and sister. Everything was amazing. It almost felt like a dream. A fantasy almost. It's been a few months since I moved to New York. I almost wish I didn't move here. Then this wouldn't be happening. I don't want to stay here anymore. I love Jade and I love being here with her. I love my fans and my career.
Jade is pulling away from me. The past few weeks, she has been 'working' more and more. Leaving early. Coming home late. Slowly I have been backing away. Putting my walls back up. She's here but she's not really here. It's about ten at night. She isn't back yet.
I stand up from my laying position and grab my suitcase from the closet. I toss all of my clothes in without bothering to fold them. I pack up everything. Load it into my car and walk back in. I grab a sheet of paper and a pen.
After finishing the note I grab my phone, charger, keys, song book, and my headphones.
I don't know what exactly happened last night. We have fought before, but never like this. Screaming at each other. She slept on the couch last night. Jade left this morning before I woke up. We just got so angry at each other. It all started when I brought up how early she leaves and how late she comes home. I couldn't take it anymore. I get in the car and do what I always do. I run. I'm such a coward. Running away from my problems instead of facing them. Instead of facing her.
Salty tears roll down my cheeks and a angrily wipe them away.
I drive to the closest airport a complete mess. I walk in and go to by a ticket.
"I need a ticket for the next flight out to California." I say.
I have on sunglasses I found in my car and I hoodie so nobody will recognize me.
"I need a form of identification." She says not taking her eyes of the computer screen.
"Do you know who I am?" I ask her taking off my sunglasses and hood. I hate using my fame for this but I need out of here as soon as possible.
She nods quickly.
"I'll print you out a ticket for the next flight. It's in thirty minutes."
I quickly put my hood back on and through security.
I get in my seat and dig through my carry on. I pull out my song book and a pencil.
-----------one month later---------------
I had my second album released a few days ago. I'm digging through my old closet for a dress. Jack said there was an event tonight that I have to go to. I pull out the dress I was looking for and find shoes. I grab shoes from the closet and next to them lays one of Jades flannels. I toss it on the bed.
I check the time and realize I still have three hours. My phone rings and I let it go to voicemail. It dings signaling that I have a new voicemail. I grab my phone and go to my voicemails clicking play.
"You're scared. That's why you did it. Your scared, because everyone you get close to. Hurts you. Your afraid that I will do the same thing. I was looking at rings the past few weeks. To, uh, ask you to marry me. I kept telling myself that you would probably say no. That you would think it was to soon. I even called your dad. Johnnies dad. I was so focused on what was going on inside my head that I lost focus on what was around me. The airplane lady keeps telling me to get off the phone. Don't run this time. I love you." It ends.
Tears roll down my cheeks. Her voice sounded so broken. I bite my lip and choke down a sob. Why did I run? Why am I always afraid? She isn't like them. I know that now. I would have said yes. I sit down grab my song book and pen.
