My Fantasy World

day 4

I didn't dream about her... which I thought was good, but she found her way back into my mind.

I don't know how she did it, but she did.

But she now knew that I liked her which made it a little awkward. I had forgotten about it until about homeroom. And when I went in there I nearly died because it wasn't until I sat down that I remembered, thank god she is on the other team.

I told samoya about it, but she looked at me like I was stupid... Maybe I was , who knows.

Anyways, my day went on like every other day.

But when I got outside I didn't talk to her, well I didn't walk up to her to talk to her, she walked up to me. I was blushing like a mad man, but I didn't care. She gave me a hug when she was leaving... I nearly died because she took my heart and soul as soon as she did that.

I went home and I was browsing through Facebook and I found her name under the you might know section, so I sent her a friend request. And she accepted it. I was kinda happy but I didn't want to message her so soon, so I didn't. I practiced my flute a little and I took a shower, and went to bed.

I could help but dream about her she had all my heart and my soul, but I don't know how she did it.

She was the only thing on my mind the next morning. I saw her in the bleachers and you knew that she knew that she had your heart and soul.

Its like she was kinda using me but I didn't care, because she ment so much to me. There was no one else like her, no one who I had fallen for was so perfect as her.

She was an angle sent from god, but it seemed like she wasn't sent for me. it was almost like she was sent to love someone else , but just some life lessons you got to learn on your own, not every angle sent from god it for you, but just to torture you.

I didn't know what to do that morning so I went on messenger and I sent a message saying "good morning, how did you sleep?" She didn't respond until later on that day after school.

So I went to school knowing she knew. I went to homeroom and didn't say anything to her. I am on the don't talk unless talken to mode.

I didn't like it but I didn't want to seem like I was obsessed and I was annoying her.

She was my everything and I didn't want to mess up the one chance I had with her but it was gone in an instant.

We were outside and she hugged me again right before she left.

When I got home is where I messed up. I messaged her and I accidentally on purpose send a couple emojis with the heart eyes to her.

She said what did I mean? I told her that it didn't mean anything or did it. Her response was "so does it?

Later on that day i told her that it ment I f****ing love her.She said O god.

I told my friend samoya and she said to ask her out so I did.She was like Im not good at relationships... I told her "so"And then said whats your answer, well you don't have to answer if you don't want to.

She said "hell ill have to think about it"I said ok take all the time you need.

Then I ate breakfast and went to bed (extreamly nervous).