Lies * adopted by cullens*

Lies *adopted by Cullens* 3

Chapter three.

I breathed in and it felt like my lungs were on fire. My eyes shot open only to regret it. I was in a room covered in white. White walls, white ceiling, white bed spread, a white desk and chair, the dresser's were white, the closet doors were white... Basically it was a very boring room. I turned my head to see the white door *big shocker Note: sarcasm* being opened by the pixie girl. Alice i think was her name.

"Oh my gosh, Thank god your okay oh." She said as she gave me a hug. I stayed quiet like always. "You scared us." I wanted to say something but my voice felt like it would crack at any momment.

"Can i get something to drink please." I managed to croak out.

"Yea I'll be right back" She said. I laid back down and ended up falling asleep.

*6 hours later*

I woke up to the feeling of starvation. I looked at the source of the only light in my room. It was a little digital clock with red numbers on it. The numbers on the clock said it was 3:30 in the morning. My stomatch grawled. I looked colser on the night stand to see a class of water and two white pills. I popped them in my mouth and drank some of the water. I finally got the energy to get out of my bed and rade the fridge. i quietly opend my door and i was on the second floor of the house. I managed to quietly sneek down the decinding stair case and make my way to the kitchen. I opend the fridge door to see a bowl of cut up watermelon sitting right in front of my view. I looked around to see no one was there. I set the bowl on the counter and searched for a bowl.

Finally after searchig, and searching i found one. I picked out a couple of peices, then put it back in the fridge. I walked into the living room and turned the tv on low and watched The Sports channel. I ate my watermelon and watched tv. Then i felt the couch dip in next to me. I jumped a foot in the air and truned to see it was Emmett next to me. I sighed in relief. I was listening to the tv and they were discussing how the bears beat the sox in the world series. I was happy i was a huge bears fan at heart. Emmett seemed alittle disapointted.

"Yes" I whispered in victory.

"You like baseball?" He asked.

"Yea i played it when i was 5 up to when i was 9." I said.

"I've played baseball all my life." He said making it seem like an inside joke.

"Thats awesome." I said.

"So are you okay?" He asked. I shurgged my sholders. Then her grabbed them and said pretty loudly "No your not going to go all silent on me" I knew he ment it in a joking manner but it still kinda scared me.

Then i saw a light flicker in the hall way and turn on. It was Esme. She had black silk looking pj's on and she had her hands on her hips. "Emmett Cullen it is 4 in the morning Carlise has work in the morning so stop shouting in my house." She said in a stern voice.

"Yes ma'm." He said.

"I want you both in bed by 4:30 understand?"  We both nodded. "Good, now Good night" She said walking threw the hall way then turned off the light and shut the door.

I then remember to look down only to see i was in a pair of black sweats with a tank top. I looked at my left arm to see that my ten bracelets that covered my arm were gone. I slowley turned my arm over looking at the permenit fresh sever indentions i have made that will always haunt me. I looked over to see Emmett looking at me with cautious eyes. i stood up from the couch and practically ran to my room. when i got in there i looked for my bracelets and found them. I studied them each carefully. One was plasit it was pink with black zebra stripes. The second and third were multicolored yarn. The fouth one wad black yarn. The fifth one was green glow in the dark and read "Pericing the darkness." The sixth one said bud wiser "Heres to the heros" The seventh said oh snappp. The eighth said trouble. The nineth was mulitcolored and said my pyrimid.gov. The 10th said "Live strong." and my favorite the 11th said "I can live with out you but without you id be miserable at best-May day parade".

Every time i move into a new home i get a new one. I sat on my bed and slowed my heart rate to make it seem like i was sleeping. I was really trying to remember things from my past i dont remember much and i dont want to sleep because it will just be a nightmear like always. I sat in bed fr a couple of minutes and listend i heard everyone wake up Carlise leave, showers going, people talking and cars starting. Finally i didnt hear anyone else. I walked down stairs, checked all the rooms looked out side. They were all gone. Alone time. I thought to my self. I ran up stairs opened my bag and looked until i found what i was looking for. The headless horseman book. I opend it to the pages i hollowed out to hide things in and found my old friend. I shut the book and shoved it in my bag. I ran to the bathriim and scooted my braclets up. I started to cut my skin deep so i could watch the blood poor. I cut till the pain of yrsterdaywas gone, for the pain gowing up. for the pain of the people i watched die, but most importantly for the pain of me being born i cut till i was numb. i washe the blood of my arm and got a town and applied pressuethe i put rubbing alcohol on my blade and some on my arm It stung in pain but i kept quite. once i was done i went to my room got bavk in my bag grabbed my lighter and my "vase" and some paper. I put the towl in the vase with a little alcohol and paper sticking out of the top and lit it on fire i puthe lid on the vase so the smell wouldnt carry on threw the room once it was ashes i opend the window dumped the ashes and put the vase where it belonged.

About two hours later i was still alone. it was seven am. I decided to go down stairs and lay on the couch. I rubbed my head this quietness was killing me. Just as i said that the door opend. I didnt bother to look up. Next thing new Jasper was looking around as if for something he had lost. his nose flared up and down as he inhaled and exhaled.

"Was something burning?" He asked.

"No that i know of." I lied smoothly. He looked at my left arm then quickly looked away.

"Liying to the people that can rerturn you in a heart beat isnt so smart." He said. Suddenly i felt giulty and eventually broke down in tears. Jasper stood there looking at me like i was crazy. He sat next to me and rubbed my back. he then gave me a hug.

"Please dont take be back, please dont. I-i wont do it again." I said over and over and i cried into his shoulder. Scared that if i go back what Mrs. Maltsh would do to me.

"I wont just show me what you did." He said in a quiet voice. i slowley pulled away trmbling as i moved my bracelts up to revile my new "art work." I heard him sigh.

"Please dont take me back." Was the last words I said before a wave of sleepyness crashed over me. I felt cold hands catch me before i was compleatly asleep.