I Thought My Life was Over...

I Thought My Life was Over...part2

I still had to go back and take that stupid Algebra test!-_- After i took the test the bell rang and i went onto my third period. I felt so depressed so unloved so like there was nothing to live for!! I Thought about suicide but then i Thought about my mum and friends i couldn't do it!! But i could've instead i took out my student ID and i went to a corner to pretend i was sleeping and started rubbing digging into my skin with the ID. I counted to 100 and it left marks my skin was peeling and it bleed only a little..my left wrist,five dark marks! At this point i didn't really care anymore!.. i decided to stop myself from doing anything worse or deeper than it already was!.. Once i got back to see my friends i was still depressed! they asked how i was...then i showed them my wrist! Kerri started cursing at me and asking me why i did it and to never do it again!! I understood and just looked down.. Another one of my friends named Yosselyn i had her for gym and i told her my story and showed her my wrist and she told me what happened to her also!! She actually cut herself more than anyone i knew and she even told me not to cut anymore!

*this all happened in April of 2013.*

*Now.

Me and my mum moved out!(: But we stayed at a hotel for like a week..until one morning my mum and i found a note in her car..it was from Him!! He had found us and my heart started to race! i was soo scared!! Some of the things on that note i couldn't read because it was bad but basically he said that he would knock on our door next time if he comes back!! We both were so shocked!! How could he had found us..my mum bought a new car that he has never seen!! we changed our phones and phone numbers!! We were confused and worried! I went to school that day and i was looking around to make sure if i see him i Run away!! i told Kerri and Shay what that note said and they were scared for me too! That night me and my mum were in our hotel room watching Dancing with the stars and deciding on what to eat because it was already 7:00 pm or later. I was on our bed and my mum was going through stuff...When all of a sudden we hear the Loudest Hardest Banging or knocks coming from the door!!! We looked at each other surprised and fear!! We both knew who it was!:''( I ran to the bathroom while my mum looked out the little hole to see who it was!! She must have seen Him because she ran back to meet me in the bathroom! She dialed 911 as fast as she could!! Her voice was shaking and like she was about to cry!! She told the police that he was banging at our door and to hurry!! I was crying and trying to hold back my Loud breathing! The Loud banging kept coming and i was crossing my fingers and praying that He will go away and leave us alone!! >.< Like 20 minutes later we didn't hear knocking anymore! So my mum left the bathroom and she heard the police knocking on the door and said that the police made him leave and they followed his car making sure he doesn't come back! Me and my mum took deep breathes and my mum told the cops that we had to pack up and leave the hotel because after that happened we wouldn't be able to sleep that night!! So we got all our things together and the cops escorted us out the parking lot! We called my brother and told him to meet us at a walmart near by!! I was shaking up and scared that we would see Him in walmart!! My brother finally got there and we were trying to find a place to spend the night! That night we slept at a homeless shelter...we both know we didn't like it and we didn't belong there!! So the next morning we left that place not knowing where to go. We went another hotel that was further and close to the airport! We were there for like two weeks. And ended up finding a better place! it was a women's shelter for people who have been abused or things like that!! They only give you two months to stay there and to find a job and stuff! We have to leave at the end of June!! (: that place isn't that great but we have to manage.. i had to change school because i was scared that He would come to my school and she me or worse!! Me and my mum both know he has a gun. He brings it with him in his car. Another thing he had it that night at the hotel we he was knocking on the door!! He could've killed us if he would've got through the door!! Anyways Life alright i guess..still trying to find an apartment or something!(: Just wanted yall to know my story and to know what i went through!.. it was horrible but people judge me without knowing my story!! This is My story!!

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