Faces look at me
As they pass
And I know what they think,
“Loser, Stupid, Lost Cause, Go kill yourself”
Laughter echos in my head,
Taunting my differences.
From K to 7,
I see my tormentors,
Digging my of emotion to deeper and deeper till I can’t
I need to do this to escape my pain,
To run but I always get winded.
I sleep, twisted in my sheets,
Laughter sounds,
Faces of the tormenters look at me,
Hand heavy with cold metal.
I know I have to show how much pain I’m in,
I must be burned in their minds,
Putting the metal under my young chin,
And I take the life that needs saving.
Waking up to crying,
Yellow spot on the white sheets,
I wash off and return to hell,
Laughter went from echoes to shouting.
As I looked with a shattered mind,
I find someone like me,
Different and odd.
Going agent everything I knew,
I extended a greeting to him
And got a friend in return
Gaining more,
But one sent a wave through my heart.
I stayed to myself for Four years,
Till one asked her and her response was “No”,
I knew I had little time left
So I sent my heart to her,
Thinking I would get it back broken
But I got her heart instead.
I was in shock
I was loved,
Loved
Me,
A loser,
Stupid,
My rage, sorrow, and sadness broke
Falling away to show my soul,
A soul covered in scars,
I know pain never goes,
But with it and love that I feel,
I know I’m alive
