dying to be skinny ~ Written by my friend mae xx

dying to be skinny

Chapter 1: Never enough

~ my friend wrote this xxx let me know what you think I would love your thoughts there are 3 chapters here but im not sure if I will post the rest let me know ♡ Prittypixie ~

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I gave him one last hug and then watched him walk away to the terminal. He took one last look behind him and smiled at me; I gave him a convincing smile back and waved him goodbye. It was only after he was out of sight the tears began to fall. Liam was my rock, my everything and whenever he goes on tour it begins. No one has noticed yet and they never will. Liam is the only thing that stops me from starving myself but every time he goes on tour the cycle begins again.  

I ran to my car and franticly sped down the road anxious for the journey to be over. As soon as I got in, I ran to the fridge and began to systematically throw away food.  

For dinner I had a small bowl of salad it was bland and tasteless but at least it had barely any calories....  

This is how it starts. Every meal slowly getting smaller until there is just one mouthful a day. I got out the tape measure and began to measure my waist. The tears blur my vision but there is one thing I can see clearly and that is all the fat that must be gone by the time Liam returns. 

*3 weeks later* I am down to the bare minimum of eating now;it all just seems pointless as the fat just won't go away. I took out the tape measure and measure my waist again it was smaller but not small enough and never will be. 

Liam Skyped me as usual but said he had a surprise for me, in two days I had a flight booked and I was going to visit him on tour. I tried my best to look excited and it must have worked because he asked no questions. It's not that I don't want to see him but I feel ashamed. Ashamed of my weight and my appearance but there's no way I could ever let Liam down so I packed my bag and boarded the flight.  

He met me at the airport, I ran towards him and he picked me up and hugged me so tightly I thought he would never let go. The other boys each gave me a hug too but when Niall hugged me he seemed tense and gave me a suspicious look.  

We all went back to the hotel and they all ordered food; I politely declined and told them I had eaten on the plane. They all seemed to accept this response except Niall who gave me a worried glance.  

I walked into mine and Liam's room and began to unpack my bag, I heard footsteps behind me and the door opened and was promptly shut again. I turned round and saw Niall, he had an unreadable expression. He came over to me and said three simple words. "Does he know?" I tried to play it dumb and pretended not to know what he talking about but it was useless he saw right through my act. 

"Liam deserves to know he can help you, we can all help you." Niall said in a voice that had an almost father like authority. 

With that he slowly turned his back to me and walked out the room. It's hard to lie to Liam but even harder to tell the truth. 

I finished unpacking all my clothes and walked back into the main room and started walking over to the couch.  

It was then that the room started spinning; bright lights almost like stars clouded my vision. I began to sway on feet and the last thing I remember is my head hitting the floor and the voices of the boys seeming to get further away.