"Eli what...why ?" I say completely perplexed, with tear stains on my face.
"Why are you here, I thought you had a date tonight." I say with slight venom in my voice. "Calum..have you been crying ?" he says worried.
"YES. I. HAVE." I say putting extra emphasis on each word. Of course Im his second choice. I just can't win can I?
"Elijah you've never missed a fucking weekend spending time with me, and now you want to come here because why? she blew you off ?" I shouted at him with tears running down my face again today.
"I blew her off, I wouldnt miss a weekend with you, now would I Cally?" He says, cooing at me, also shutting me up. Im still baffled as to why he still has a positive attitude and doesn't get angry with me, because surely I was angry with him..
I wanted to stand there, I wanted to be mad at him, But he's adorable. I have to let him in,
He sits the pillow & the pizza down & hugs me, I shiver like I always do & goosebumps form on my body.
to cope with this, I let go and grab the pizza box, opening it to find my favorite pizza in there, Extra Cheese & Pepperoni. Ok thats basic but Im basic, so judge me.
He grabs the other box. "What're we watching tonight?" He says, barely audible because of all the food he was shoving down his throat.
"Its your choice Elijah" I say, with a giddy almost sarcastic tone, I actually was happy, he makes me this way. Making butterflies erupt in my stomach he then gets up and puts his arm on my shoulder.
"I was thinking something old, Monsters Inc or The Incredibles?" he says, stare at eachother for a brief moment before speaking
"Incredibles." we say at the same time then bursting into laughter, after almost eleven years of being best friends we still are amazed at how well we know eachother.
Cute, you could say.
"Callyyyyyyyyy" he says popping the movie in the dvd player. "Rub my stomach, It hurts." He continues in the same cooing voice.
what. whAT WHAT?
I can't rub him, Im going to lose myself and try to fuck him, I guarantee it.
"Uhhhh...sure." I say contradicting with my inner thoughts.
I sit criss-crossed on a comforter on the floor & lay a few pillows across my lap. He comes over and lays his body & head where the pillows were. I start to gently rub him, losing my train of thought. Paying attention to the movie and not to the adorable but overgrown child in my lap he flicks my chin.
"Um..ouch?" I say. "why ?" I continue.
"Because you're paying me no attention." He says frowning and crossing his arms like an adorable baby.
could he like not get me into my feelings tonight? that'd be great.
I mean, throughout the years he's always been like a big child, wanting my attention and craving my touch, and I believe that's where I fucked up. I took it all too personal and started to like him.
Even though I was sitting criss-crossed my lap must've been comfortable because Elijah's were slowly closing. As he drifted off to sleep, my eyelids began to get heavy too. I fought my sleep enough to watch him in his slumber.
I am not a creep,
he starts to squirm in his sleep and moves from my lap, to my chest and lays there. Literally Im going to murder him when he wakes up, hes putting me through so many emotions.
Again, my eyelids start to weigh tons and Im off to sleep, cuddling Elijah, the love of my life, like its nothing. "I might enjoy this more than him" I think to myself before falling into a deep slumber.
