"dear fred,
it's day 11 without you. my "aunt" winona tried to comfort me today, but i couldn't stay long because i've honestly have only ever been able to tolerate her when you're around. does that make me a bad person? i can't help but feel i'm taking her for granted, so i sent her a letter explaining why i left early (leaving out the detail of me being unable to stand her.) she practically raised me since my parents were never around, and though we aren't blood, she's still family. why is she so annoying though?
i've only cried three times today, which is better than a week ago. george said his first words to me today. he apologised, and we ended up crying together again.
god, we miss you so much. my body physically aches and i feel like if i keep crying, i'll run out of tears.
i am so sorry fred. for everything. i am sorry for ever taking you for granted, i am sorry for always putting my cold feet on yours. i am sorry for getting mad at you for silly things, and i am sorry for all the pranks i sabotaged. most importantly, i am sorry for not being strong enough.
all the love,
calla"
