Day 6

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During P.E I hurt my foot.. It was more serious than I'd expect that I had to stay at home today.. With boredom striking.. I began to watch that one show that made me believe in forever.. the longer I watch.. The more I remember us.. Our times together.. Everything. Eyes began to drown in tears as I punch the wall and pillow..

"If only I was smarter.."

"If only I was better.."

"If only I saw it coming.."

I began to cry as I watched.. Reminded of how much I miss her... And how much it hurts to be back where I was before I met her. Hours spent.. I than began to think

"I wonder if she's okay right now.."

"I wonder if she's happy.."

Pathetic.. Here I am feeling oh so relaxed when she's there.. Probably looking for me despite us being separated. But.. Am I really relaxed? Huh.. Guess not. Despite all my smiles and chuckles.. I'm not fine at all. Must be the epitome of being selfish.. here I am in my darkest hour when there are darker hours globally.. Could you blame me? Is a wound more painful than a broken heart? Mind so clouded.. I could barely think..

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