Scars and Love

Part 7

Scars & Love - Part 7

Emily's POV

Zayn holds my hand tightly as he leads me into my bedroom. We sit down at the bed and I try so hard not to cry because I don't want Zayn to see me weak. He wraps an arm around me and pull me closer to him. "You can cry if you want to" Zayn whispers and kiss my cheek.I can feel my eyes get watery, but I'm not going to cry in front of him.

All I can think of is that dear razor blade of mine who hides in my closet... The feeling of freedom as it dance down my skin. And the best part is how the blood comes out. First it's just some drops of blood, but when it starts to stream down it is so freeing. I can sit and watch the wound forever. The blood, the feeling and even the smell is just so freeing. But I can't cut... I won't. Because I know the person I care the most about will do the same thing. If I cut, he'll cut.

"I know what you're thinking about" Zayn says calmly with a hint of deep sadness in his voice. I look at him. His brown, deep and watery eyes are staring right back at my eyes. I look away as I know he's about to cry. "Don't do it" He says and turn my face back to him with his right hand. "I won't" I say as the first tear fall down my face without me being able to control it. "Good" Zayn says as a tear fall down his face as well. A weak smile suddenly appears on his face. "What is it?" I whisper while trying to not let another tear escape my eyes. "I just realized something" He says and look into my eyes again.

"What?" I ask and smile weakly back at him. Zayn's thumb comes closer to my cheek and he wipes the water from my tear away. I do the same on his cheek and grab both of his hands. "Can you tell me what you realized?" I ask him with a hushed tone and look into his eyes. "I have this feeling. I can't explain it though... It's just there, but only if you are near me. I feel happy and safe... I would die for you, you know that?" Zayn explains and put his forehead against mine. "I have the same feelings for you" I say and smile.

"I think I know what this feeling means though..." Zayn says and pull me as close as possible. I smile, but another tear escape my eyes. This time I guess it was a tear of joy, but i'm not sure. "Tell me" I say to Zayn as we both lean in to a kiss, but our lips barely touch as Zayn starts to speak. "I love you" He says and I can feel his warm breath just in front of my mouth. Another tear fall down from my eyes... This time it is defiantly a tear of joy. He actually said he loved me. I feel complete now. "I love you too" I say and our lips finally meet in the most passionate kiss in history.

Zayn smile between all the kisses and so do I. "So would you be me girlfriend?" Zayn asks with the cutest smile on his face. "More than anything... I love you so much" I say and kiss him again.

We both want to go far now, but we keep the moment like it is. We can't ruin this.

Zayn's POV

Emily lies beside me in the bed and we can barely keep our hands off each other. It feels so good to finally have said the 3 words to her and the fact that she's my girlfriend now makes me go crazy in love with her.

"Can we just talk?" She asks and kiss me one more time. "Of course" I say and sit up, a little disappointed for not more action. "Do you have any secrets?" She asks and sit up as well. I laugh a bit and nod at her. "Can you tell me those secrets?" She asks and grab my hand. "I love to sing" I confess and lift my shoulders. Emily's eyes lights up for the first time. "Can you sing for me?" She asks calmly and give me one of her cute smiles. I hoped she wouldn't ask that. "No" I say and shake my head in denial. "Please?" she asks. That beautiful face of hers have defiantly gotten to me and I give up. "What song do you want me to sing?" I ask her. "You decide" She says and nod her head at me.

I try to come up with a song that would fit into this moment and It doesn't take long before I figure out which song to sing to this beautiful girl.

I choose 'Let me love you' by Mario. I've listened to this song the past weeks and I think it will be perfect. I smirk at Emily and my heart beats like crazy. I am really nervous as the first words I sing fly out of my mouth. I sing the chorus to her because thats the part I know best...

"You should let me love you. Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need. Baby good love and protection. Make me your selection. Show you the way love's supposed to be. Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you"

Emily's POV

Zayn is literally the best singer I've ever heard. He should be a star or something. "What did you think?" Zayn asks with a nervous facial expression. "Zayn... You should be on TV. You can't keep this voice to yourself" I say to him with a big smile on my face. Zayn smiles at me and laughs a bit. "So I'm good?" He asks. "You're the amazing" I say and kiss him. "Anything else I should know about you?" I ask Zayn. He looks a bit frighten suddenly, like his guilty for something.

"Uhm" Zayn mumbles and try to look away, but this time I pull his face back to me. "You are going to be so mad at me if I tell you" Zayn says. I get a little nervous for what he's going to tell me, but I keep pushing him into telling me.

"I have actually never had sex before" He confess

"You're a virgin?"

(A.N)

Did anyone think Zayn was a virgin? Or was he just saying he wasn't to keep his bad boy reputation up?

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Thanks lovelies - Em xx