Its about time I give up. I'm going to let my demons win. I'm gonna let the enemies win the fight. Without Jesse. What was there to fight for? I lost the only thing keeping me alive. I screamed and cried at the top of my lungs for the voices inside my head to go away. I shut my phone off, grabbed a piece of paper and started writing my suicide note. "I act like I'm the happiest boy in the world but in reality I hate everyone and everything around me. How can someone fake the smile I smile? Fake the laughter I laugh? Society views me as nothing. All the hurtful things they say and do? Yet they act so innocent. I remember when I used to be the happiest boy in the world. Always happy. Laughing. Smiling. Everything a normal boy did. I'm sorry you didn't get to say bye. I'm sorry it had to end this way. And so earlier. I have to go now. Don't worry. Ill see you someday soon. I promise. Love Alex."
