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this chapter will be lengthy and contain graphic language as well as graphic content pertaining to death, if you don't like reading stuff like that I suggest that you don't read this chapter! And just wait for the next one!!!!
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Shawn: Amelia and I had stayed at the fair for hours

Shawn: long hours

Shawn: I told her that I was getting drowsy, and we should really get back to the hotel

Shawn: she begged me to stay a little while longer, but I couldn't...I told her that we had a long drive back to the hotel and I didn't want to fall asleep while driving or anything

Shawn: "whatever, shawn you're always making up fucking excuses." she was so mad at me, but I didn't care I was more concerned with making sure we got back safely

Shawn: we got in the car and she had her legs crisscrossed in the seat her head leaning up against the window

Shawn: we rode in silence for a while until she just said "This was the whole point of running away..to not live by anyone's rules but to live by our own, and your shitty reason to end the fun is because you're tired, that's so pathetic Shawn, I should've just come here alone."

Shawn: I just looked at her and asked "how could you say that Amelia? I've risked a lot just coming here with you!"

Shawn: she only yelled saying: "it's not like I made you come!"

Shawn: I looked over at her "Do you hear yourself right-" SHAWN! As I looked up I noticed  we were on the wrong side of the road a car was heading for us straight on, I tried to swerve out of the cars path but I couldn't, it was far too late our cars had crashed my head hit the steering wheel harshly and I placed my hand on my forehead, squinting my eyes closed in pain, I opened my eyes and I wish I hadn't, I could see Amelia's head fly horrifically onto the windshield, her body crashing back against the leather seat, I watched as her eyes closed slowly, her head falling against the slightly cracked window, her mouth was open and it slowly closed as she took her very last breath "No.." I remember myself mumbling as I struggled to reach over to tap her "AMELIA!" she remained unresponsive "Amelia, wake up..please." Salty tears fell from my eyes stinging the fresh cut that was on my face, it was no use she was gone, I punched the steering wheel out of frustration. This was all my fault..I should've never looked away

The police, the firemen, and the ambulance all arrived shortly after they tried to help me out the car but I wouldn't let them, I told them to get to Amelia..she needed them more than I did, and so the did they..I watched sadly as they hauled Amelia's lifeless body out of the car they placed her on a cot and did everything they could to bring some life back into her but it was no use...they pronounced her as dead before they put her body in a white body bag and zipped it up placing her in the back of the ambulance, driving her body to the hospital..

Shawn: and that was the day that I lost myself

Shawn: the day that I truly began to hate myself

Shawn: I don't think that I will ever forgive myself because if I would've just kept my eyes on the road she would still be here

Shawn: I'm such an idiot

Elle: Shawn you can't blame this on yourself...

Shawn: save it Elle there is absolutely NOTHING you can say to me to even make me feel the least bit better I will NEVER forgive myself for that night.

Shawn: speaking of night

Shawn:it's getting pretty late now..and I should get some rest

Shawn: Goodnight Elle..

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A/n: I'm thinking about writing a version of this chapter but it being told from Amelia's pov, after all there are two sides to every story right? 😏
**there will be a video edit for this chapter I just have to post it to YouTube first :)