Beware the living

Chapter 2 "Daisy's"

I can't move. I can't breath, time doesn't seem to continue. It just stopped.
The cute girl I learnend to walk and talk had a gaping hole in her head, blood is still flowing out of it. My stomach is turning, did I do that.
She was only six, how could I do this?
I walk towards Jack. I hate to ask this certainly at this moment, but I want to know how she got bit. "How did she get bit?" I ask.
Jack is silent for a long time. Then he looks at me but turns away as soon as he meets my eyes.
"It happend yesterday... she wonderd off outside the camp walls." Jack says. "I went after her but when I was saying she had to get back... as soon as she turnend one of the infected jumped on her"
He continous.
"I...I ran towards her as fast as I could... but" , he starts sobbing "I was to late it already bit her"
Sarah didn't really understand the dangers. When she and Jack lost their parents Sarah acted like they never even excisted.
She was always just playing as if the apocalypse never happend.
We didn't understand but we also didn't see it as a problem.
And now this I can't help but feel a litlle responsible for this.
"I'm so sorry" I say. "Really? Is that the only thing you can say. You just shot his sister and thats all u can get out?" I think to myself. It is indeed not much but what can I say I don't know. I can't justify this. Yes he asked but there could've been another way maybe.
"Everybody go back in your tents I'll handle this", Jonathan says.
Everyone snapped out of some sort trance and looked at Jack with compasion.

Once everyone got into their tents Jonathan walked towards us. He gives a quick look at the body but soon fends his sight to something else.
Jack was holding sarah in his arms.
The desperation in his eyes, he just lost the last familie he had.
All he has now is me and that isn't much since I'm pretty much a damsel in distress.
This again can you stop complaining and acctually help your friend, you're such a selfish piece of shit Jenna really get you're shit together! This voice in my head is right, I don't know if I should listen to it it seems like I'm slowly loosing my sanity.
But it's still right I need to help Jack now.

Jonathan stares at Sarah with a look I can only describe as pure sadness.
"I know I can't hold her forever but please juts give me 2 minutes to say goodbye" Jack managed to get out.
I sit next to Jack trying to comfort him.
Jack looks at his sister and between the sobs he tries to speak but nothing seems to come out as words.

Adventually he takes a deep breath and says " I am so so sorry Sarah, I was supposed to protect you that's what big brothers are do right? Protect their little sisters. I am not a good brother I never have been.
When you were born I didn't like you at first but mom and dad weren't around much so I always had to look out after you. Once I got to know you better I started to care for you and love you. I wanted to protect you from everything. Like the time you fell from your bike and you scrapped your knee.
I fixed you right up.I thaught I could protect you form anything. I'm sorry I had to... I'm sorry, I love you Sarah, i'll never forget you."

Tears were rolling down Jack's cheeks as he said those last words.
I felt like someone grabbed my heart and just ripped it out of my chest.
I look at Jack and say "We should give her a proper burial."

"You're right, let's go"
Jack stands up with his sister in his arms.
Jonathan grabs a shovel and the three of us walk to a nice patch of flowers just outside our camp's walls.
Daisy's, Sarah's favorite flowers.
Jonathan dug a hole as I was getting something to bury Sarah in.
Cindy came out of her tent and stopped me.
"You need to be there for him ." She said.
"We only have eachother now, I would never leave him."
"Good because this is not going to be easy, loosing the last people you love will drive you insane."
I am silent for a long time I don't know how to answer to this. I guess she's right the people who we still have left are our strenghts to move on. If I lost Jack I don't know what I would do. It would seem pointless to survive even if there's a chance my parents are still alive I'm not betting on it.
The awkward pauze causes Cindy to move away from my path and let me through.
"Please Jen, whatever he does or says he's still Jack it's just going to take a while before he accepts this" Cindy whispers when I pass her.
I nod and head over to Jack's tent. In his tent there are 2 sleeping bags one has the Pink unicorn blanket we found at a super market a while back.
Sarah saw it in the suplies we got and instantly fell in love with it and claimed it for herself.
Everyone was ok with it, she was just a kid.
I grab the pink blanket Sarah slept with and ran back to the burial site.

Jonathan crawled out of the one meter deep hole and gave me a compasionate look.
I walk towards Jack and put the blanket on the ground.
He gently lays Sarah on the blanket and tugs her in.
For a moment it looked like she was just sleeping but the hole in her forhead ruins that mirage.
Jack puts his sister in the grave and Jonathan starts shoveling the sand onto her.

"I can't watch this" Jack says and he walks away towards his tent.
"Jack wait! you go after him I've got this" Jonathan says.
I go into Jacks tent. He's sitting in a cornor staring infront of him.
I place myself next to him and say "It's ok I'm here, I loved her too she was always so happy and full of joy. Jack I know that it feels like you are all alone now but you're not I'm here and I'm never leaving."
He stays quiet
"With all due respect Jen... but you have no fucking idea what I feel like right now.
You haven't seen your parents being ripped apart by those monsters. You didn't have to shoot your own familie. YOU HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT THIS IS LIKE!!"He screams and for a moment I could swear he wanted to hit me but changed his mind. Does he hate me for shooting her?
"You are over run with emotions right now, I'm just saying I'm here if you need me please don't be mad. It's true I don't know what it's like but you have to talk to someone." I say trying to get him to look at me but he doesn't.
"I... I just want to be alone now Jen please leave."
I leave his tent and enter mine as soon as I lay down I start thinking about what happend.
Sarah died, Jack doesn't even want to talk to me and I'm all alone if it wasn't for Jack.
I remember what Cindy said "whatever he does or says he's still Jack".
Yes he's still Jack and whatever happens I'll be there for him.