Starting Over

My First Boyfriend

I was playing around on my phone and got on the kik app. When I got on it I had a bunch of messages from guys asking me what was wrong. I happened to get a look at this guy he looked really hot, so I started talking to him and on the same day I started dating him. I was so excited it was my first boyfriend. As soon as lunch came I rushed over to Destiny so excited and told her what happened. At that moment I thought everything was going to get better. Little did I know everything would be going down hill soon. The guy I was talking to was named Josh he lived in Alabama so we had a long distance relationship. Everyone said it wouldn't work but I didn't give up I kept fighting to stay with him. He was suicidal like me. He introduced me to his brother tristan. I'm not sure what was going through my head but I was falling for his brother. I couldn't leave Josh for him I would have been wrong so I hooked him up with Destiny. Little did I know was what I was going to do next was the worst mistake of my life. It wasn't but 4 weeks later I did everything I could to break them up cause I was so jealous. The thing I did that ruined everything was hooking him up with my friend Genna. She ruined everything. She said things that hurt Tristan caused him to become suicidal. We fought all the time we would make up for at least a day or two and start fighting again. Genna would not leave Tristan alone she started flirting with Josh tried breaking us up at least that's what Tristan told me. At the time I believed every single thing Josh or Tristan said was true. Genna went around and told someone I was pregnant and then the next day a lot of people were talking about it. I'm still a virgin and don't plan on losing it anytime soon. When I hear people talking about me being pregnant I cried and I Tran to the bathroom and went in to a stall and started to cut I talked to Josh and he helped me. He has showed me ways to cope with the pain he told me anytime I wanted to cut to just use a red pin and make lines on my wrist I helped a lot.