Starting Over

Summer Time

It's the summer of 2015 and I am still without my electronics. Still locking my self in my room wishing I was dead. I have given up on all hope in life. I would write all day expressing my feelings. Just trying to forget the world. Without my best friend I did not know what to do anymore. I felt like my life was over. I started sneaking around my parents back and talk to Josh it has been about two months since the last time I talked to him. They day I started talking to him he called me on Skype and we talked all day long. I cried when I first picked up hearing his voice. I finally had someone to talk to. We still talk to this day but not like we use to. It's more complicated now. But at the time I felt like everything was going to go back to normal and I would get my best friend back but it didn't happen then. Me and Josh talked every single day, from the time we woke up till the time we went to bed. He told me he moved to Ohio but he never comes to see me. I've started to get a little suspicious. I don't know what to do I'm so lost. We have never met in person. He has told me days he would come but never does, sometimes I think he just makes things up he uses a lot of excuses not to come. It's a little odd. We have been together for almost a year and still haven't met him. He won't show his face on skype. What if he's not who he says he is. I don't want to stop talking to him tho. I have been through so much and he was there for me when no one else was. I just wish he would come see me. That whole summer I was depressed even tho I was talking to him.