Starting Over

The Big Fight

Ever since Genna started that rumor i wasn't able to trust her. Me and Destiny went to the guidance counselor like once a week. I was getting so depressed I felt like crying all the time. No one ever knew when i went home everyday after school I didn't eat I starved my self. When I would eat at school I would go and make myself sick I lost alot of weight. Me and Destiny started to fight for the first time it wasn't like when we would argue. She took Genna side over mine it felt like a stab in the back. We sent messages through an app called textnow and through wattpad. We said a lot of hurtful things. I sent her really long messages and it hurt me saying that but I was mad and things just sorta got said. I was walking down the hallway and I flipped her off and called her a bitch cause she wouldn't get out of my way. I have regreted that ever since. But at the time I was just so mad. I don't remember exactly what were fighting about but I know it had something to do with Josh and Tristan. Right then and there I felt like one had lost everything. I lost my best friend it killed me not to have her there to talk to. My mom took all my electronics away near the end of the school year, and told me I was never aloud to talk to Josh or Tristan ever again. I cried knowing I had no one I didn't sleep for weeks.I was too depressed. I've attempted suicide three times during the school year.the pain was just too much. I couldn't bear it. I wanted to end my life
I felt so worthless, so useless. I felt like I didn't belong in this world. I wanted to escape and end all the pain people were causing me. I had no one. I tried talking to my mom about it but all she did was say I was demented. She put me down. She never tried helping me stop. There's not a day that goes by that I'm not locking my self in my room to keep away from everyone.