Was it the rejection you feared?
Or the pain from it?
You dream all your life
that you will be the popular girl
someday.
But did the word ugly
make you aware
that
that will never happen.
Did they
ever beat you,
push you around
making you fall
to the ground.
Did they ever
call you names
until you thought that
you were the one to blame.
Did they ever
make you
carve your skin
to the point
where
the red, cherry liquid
came out
breathing in the fresh air.
Was it too hard to bare?
Did they
make you
cry every night.
Make you wish that
you could win this fight.
Did they
make you feel like
there was no escape,
from the pain.
They made you this way.
They showed you that you
are nothing.
But now
here you are,
ready to jump.
ready to tie the knot.
ready to take the pills.
ready to say goodbye.
You feared the pain from rejection
not rejection itself.
But all you did
was blame yourself.
Now you're gone.
Now you're not here.
What will they think
when you're not there?
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These come from my heart
