Why?
Why haven't I yet?
Why haven't I done it?
I always talk about it and I know I will one day.
What am I waiting for?
Am I waiting for someone to do it for me?
Or am I too depressed and lacking in motivation to do something about it?
Oh wait sorry yeah. Lazy. Too lazy to kill myself.
Because people don't seem to realise depression drains your energy.
I know I'm going to kill myself. It's always 'oh once I've seen that movie' or ' I'll just wait until after my birthday' or 'after Christmas' but how far is far enough?
How long do you have to wait for it to not be a reverse birthday present?: Taking something away (my life) and apparently 'leaving something negative'.
But it won't be negative.
It won't be negative when I'm gone.
My friends will be happy, neither them nor my parents will have to put up with me or at least slightly pretend that they like me. People can finally get on with their lives without the negative cloud; of my life, hanging around.
I'll be dead and everyone will be happy.
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Poems with a twist
PoetryWhen I get to my lowest I write these. Let's hope I never have to use them. (Or not) If you are a lucky enough to be part of this (you will know if this applies) , then congratulations, your existence has made a big enough effect on my life to be me...
