TIAOM:MY TOMCHARMING 2 (last first kiss)

11 [ OVER NIGHT ]

it was the first time i didnt go home cause im with jason.
I was a little bit scared .yes he is my boyfriend.and he respect me but he is still a man.and temptation is unpredictable.

We eat in a seafood grill.i change my clothes cause im on my highschool uniform.
While were enjoying the food.
Jason was just staring at me.
Like assuring me that im the only girl for her.
After we eat...
He ordered a bottled of beer.
Once is okey but he empty 3 bottles already.
L "jay? Lets go now..your so drunk.."
He smiled and stood up.next he hold my hand.and took me to go out in that resto.
While walking along the stream..he was so uneasy.he keeps on holding my waist then my hair.

I knew already that jason was in the influence of alcohol.
My fear grows more and more stronger.

Just after i had put him on the bed.i lay down also beside him.but he move and face in my position.
He opened his eyes.
And try to kiss me.but i hurriedly get up.
He hold my hand and let me lay down again.i was being force by his hands.
He was to strong.then i had get back to the bed.he hold my hands up to my head.and starting kissing my neck.
I was crying already..and my knees were shaking...
Maybe he felt that i was freaking out so he stop kissing me and let go of my hand..my shirt was ruined..i was holding the open botton of my shirt while crying..
"i...im sorry...lj..i didnt mean it..forgive me.."
He was holding his head and felt so much guilt inside..i look at my wrist and it went red because of the force from jason's hand..
I walk out of that room..and ran away while still in tears..
It wasnt jason i saw that moment...
It was a dark monster trying to grab my weaknesses.
I was walking when i reach the stage of that resort...there was a night party and a band was performing on the stage...
The vocalist was singing kelly clarkson's already gone..

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die
I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
But someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go...

I found myself sitting on a big rock and crying so hard while listening to that song ...i was covering my face with my two hands when someone offered me a handy...
When i look up..my eyes went wide...
"ace.?"